Happiness Can Not Thrive Where Unhappiness Lives.

Belief, what a powerful thing.

To believe in Santa Claus.

To believe in a God.

To believe in something spiritually beyond us.

To believe in Aliens.

To believe in Science.

To believe that if I do x, y, zed, I will and can and am meant to be happy.

Being happy is doing you.

Run-on sentences coming up because THEY CAN. It is a passionate artistic choice to leave the paragraphs of passion untouched as they are instead of going back and editing them to fit some archaic writing rule. I value being authentically me and I value being different. In today's world, being happy is synonymous with being different.

A lot of the world is conditioned that happiness in this life is not something to strive for, and when you come from that world and you find that happiness is real and worth believing in; you see the only difference between unhappy people and yourself is the belief of whether life is meant to be lived happily every day or if every day is meant to be a struggle.

Even if you have all of your basic needs met and BELIEVE there is nothing to mentally work on or change yet you still fully (maybe subconsciously because you haven't done the work) believe that life is meant to be contentious, unhappy, and full of stressors, and this is just not true- unless you believe it is, then it is true (Abraham Hicks).

Belief is a powerful thing. Being able to believe in your imagination. Your vision of living the life you want to live working the career you want to work enjoying your ability to move your body the way you want to enjoy it being active in all the ways you want to be active.

I made this come true for myself. I was working at T.J. Maxx not making enough money to live while going to college and having a full schedule that did not work for me at all - I was dedicated to my degree however I did not let myself peek beyond the mirage of this busy, unhappy, financially unfulfilling, not sustainable life until I got my degree (my third degree, the first two apparently wasn't enough for me to decide I deserve to have an amazing self- concept which I learned self - concept from the account "Electrasoul" after I had already worked my way up in my career to be making 21$ an hour from my laptop able to work anywhere I want to with a solid 401k match all of the benefits you could want and every holiday you could want to be covered and I got hired for this career at 24. I had zero guidance from starting my career and even before that. I have been on my own and had to figure out and still have a few things to do for the first time ever all by myself because guidance rarely comes when you are doing amazing, there are few people doing amazing who are able to guide you. And at 22 and 23 there was no one willing to help me as I got hired for these amazing careers and made amazing opportunities happen for myself, I needed guidance as a child and as a young adult graduating college and starting an amazing career for myself and somehow I see kids my age who do not put in the work I do have the guidance I need. They need my work ethic and I need their overbearing mom who actually cares about them versus mine who has let me starve my entire life.

Imposter syndrome immediately set in as no one was cheering for me the way that I do for others. This has been the common theme from the time I was young and A LOT I mean A LOT of people need to come to terms with the fact that they treated me terribly and have blood on their hands. Just because I am strong and still here and doing more amazing than I could of even imagined when I was in college - their bad behavior is not excused just because I came out on top. The way people have treated me tried to keep me down and not put me on in hopes of eliminating strong competition is demonic and causes people to lose their lives every single day because of the irresponsible way mean people treat others.

It is completely irresponsible to leave someone less happy than how you found them.

A lot of adults are completely irresponsible and there is a portion of adults who are keeping their happiness despite trying to get their basic needs met and there is a portion of adults with their basic needs met who just are so dedicated to acting miserable and acting out the verb of being unhappy instead of partaking in the activity the verb of being happy where they wouldn't know how to be happy if it fell in their lap.

This is when the culmination of having no one on my side wanting me to actually be happy because they are not happy came to light is when I was making 21 an hour from my laptop with consistency and full benefits and a high 401k match and literally no one was happy for me only jealous. Even if they wake up at 11 am and I put in the work years ago to be part of the 5 am club they still think they deserve it and I don't even though I have it. Insane. A lot of people are insane. Anyone who has called me crazy is actually insane. And anyone who thinks there is anything wrong with me pointing the finger at me instead of working on themselves like I have been doing my entire life is actually insane and obsessive.

I spent years creating my happy life for myself through consistency, studying, belief, and dedication to wanting to be happy until I took the steps leveled up over and over over the course of 2 and a half years until I had a career that anyone who isn't set for life on money would LOVE to have and work being able to work from the beach or their favorite Cafe and that is exactly what I wanted for myself and I manifested it (put in the consistent mindset beliefs and corresponding work and worked on my resume and worked and worked AKA manifested) and got it for myself and no one who I thought would be happy for me was happy for me.

They could only be happy for me up to the limit of happiness that they have experienced and to their level of belief and beyond that they couldn't comprehend this new happy way I was living my life where I don't have to struggle because I chose not to, no financial issues, nothing.

I will have bad days on this planet. When my dogs die, dealing with melanoma, I am not going to create bad days because of small things that I let bother me like traffic or feeling like a child who doesn't have control over their own life and is unhappy. That was my childhood. I was completely unhappy because I was smart and my mom hated that and took my autonomy in every way she could. And then when I started making more money than her at 25 and working in a way that she could never imagine working where I had this freedom she just scoffed at me and what I created for myself.

Happiness is not able to thrive where unhappiness lives.

I had no guidance from adults in my life growing up because they were so unhappy they didn't want me to exceed them in any way they weren't truly trying to help me they were pretending to help while not fully giving their presence to me when I needed guidance.

I have had boys and men alike act in ways towards me that are absolutely not okay just because they think I look pretty and I never had protection at school, college when some guy was taking pictures of me I brought it to the administration and they refused to do anything and I was so uncomfortable I had to stop going to class as much as I could get away with. This has been my life. Absolutely not okay with the way people handled me at my innocent time of needing guidance and support from 2 to 26 until I had the age to be able to guide myself put a roof over my head and have access to be able to make an income from a variety of different companies online where when adults around me in person behave terribly I am able to call it out and say that's enough and no more and never again without retaliation that feels like death because you are a child without proper care because your caregiver is busy throwing a fit that you stood up for yourself and your needs and what is right.

I am finally, just, barely, old enough where if I don't have anyone who is happily willing to guide me in my happy life and guide me with good intentions willing to listen to me and want what I say I want for myself and want the absolute most amazing best for me in the community I was raised in or went to college in then I am finally old enough to be able to guide myself when there is no better guidance available.

Everyone needs help from other people in this world no one can just live solo. You have to go to the right places for advice about what you want and where you want to be, the people you are around may just not be able to take you there and may be really emotionally abusive while you are honestly doing everything in your power right and just asking for simple reasonable help with a small part of life and those people are not able to show up for you, those are not your people. Love is a verb (unknown). Happy is a verb. I am being happy. I am being and delivering love. It is not something you say and just have. Not like my degree which I thankfully just have and no one can take from me. To say you love has to be backed up by loving actions and to say you are happy has to be backed up by happy actions.

The most profound thing to me now is that anyone would look to anyone for guidance about anything if that person is not able to make themselves happy. That must be the bare minimum is that you have to be happy yourself if you want to give any advice about how to live life aka how to be happy on this planet which is the only way I choose to live.

Some people's advice is just bad because they aren't happy themselves so what do they really know? Nothing. A good student like me learns even from a bad teacher, however, everything they say comes from a bias and has an underlining tone of not actually having the basic foundation you need to empower others which is to be happy yourself.

Some people aren't so great and their mom pretends like they are amazing while some people are amazing and no one tells them that because they don't want them to know how powerful and great they are. Manipulation at its finest.

Your happiness is for you. Other people truly do suck. Live your happy life and anyone who has a problem with it can F*** off. Tell them to have the best day ever and don't be around them ever again.