And The Sun Still Dances In Your Eyes

My lover,

I loved you more than I loved death, I spent years and years dreaming of the day it would wrap me in its arms until I met you.

People talk all the time about loving someone enough to die for them, for me it was the complete opposite, dying was easy, living on the other hand was something I dreaded.

Before I met you, I would spend long hours staring at the ceiling dreading my existence and then one hot afternoon in front of rhapsodies, I met you, you had captured the sun in your eyes, I wonder if you knew just how luminous you were, you were glorious, so much so that I was scared of you, you were something good, I wasn't used to good things.

That night, when you first hugged me like I could break, it was so soft I felt like you were absorbing me and maybe truly you were, maybe it was you who took away all of those heavy feelings and gave me light because I went home that day and looked up at my ceiling, the sun was there.

I loved you so much that I wanted to live for you, I sucked at it but you made me want to try, I lived simply for the moment when I would wake up from sleep, roll over to the right and you'd be there with the brightest smile, it was so bright you know, even when you left it lingered or maybe it was because I memorized the details, I too wanted to capture the sun in my eyes.

You know the day you left, I went to that rooftop, it wasn't as beautiful as it is now and I started running, it was 3 pm, I ran so fast hoping that you would be at the other side waiting for me to fall into your arms just like when we first met, I ran as though I could hack the matrix and catch you before you left without a proper goodbye, it was 6:30 pm on that rooftop when the sun slowly started to disappear, I stood still holding my breath, that would be the last time I would see you, I didn't want to forget just how beautiful you were.

Do you remember the day I told you the sun danced in your eyes?

I was wrong because I was shy, I was wrong because I under-emphasised the truth.

The sun actually did dance in your eyes and with it came masquerades of hope.

I write to you today from a place far away, a place beyond the valley of loneliness, where the heart at the mention of love plays a sad rhythm.

Come with me, let's pay the blue seas a visit, let's submerge our souls in the quietness that births their beginning. Walk by me and shield my feeble heart from the brink of collapse.

I sit enclosed behind the four walls of my blazing mind, trying to paint pictures with words, pictures of how deep your arrow of affection has permeated my soul.

Pictures of how defeated my ego lie since you invaded my fort with your charms of serenity.

I bleed, I bleed because in a fortnight or soon I'd leave for the other half of the world, back to my recluse. I'd leave to seek redemption, a journey I must make to better our souls, a voyage into the desert of uncertainty, and all I'd have by me are the thoughts of you.

I'd write you a thousand letters and breathe very faint to send them, I'd remember the moments I shared with you and weep my heart to sleep.

But I'd remember you, I'd pamper your memories and pray they stay on forever. For I have seen love torn to shreds, I have seen love shot and speared.

I still chase the sun sometimes you know, I tell myself that one day, I'lI catch it, I'll catch you and every time the sun rises, I catch a glimpse of you, I still live just to see it every day.

I know that somewhere beyond my imagination, the sun is still in your eyes, for now, my baby, sleep, I will see you in another life time🥰