Today's the Day
One Last Silent Conversation
You normally sit so still. Seeing you worry away at your thumbnail as you polish it over and over with the inside of your index finger is frightening me more than what we are going to do.
Maybe it's calming you. I'd try it, but you're holding my right hand too tightly, and the thumb on my left hand never has been able to bend enough to move in a circle after he broke it when he beat me last year.
If the thumb-polishing didn't give away your nerves I would have known by the soaking wetness that is pooled between our clasped palms. And now you are doing that slow breathing you've been teaching me: in through the nose for four beats, out through the mouth for five beats. In. Out. In. Out.
Are we really going to do this? Are we? Today?
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CALM DOWN! Calm down! calm down. In. Out. In Out. In Out.
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I'm scared, too. If you want to change your mind, if you want to forget about our plan, I promise that I will be OK when you leave. You could handle it and I will until I can leave, too.
And, really, I promise to be good, to be better, to stay quieter and not cause his headaches. If I can do that then he won't feel so sick and angry. He won't be so upset after he makes me be quiet.
I'm quiet now. I'm quiet now but your three quick squeezes let me know you know how I feel.
One squeeze for yes. Two for No. Three for I Love You.
I'm going to miss you so much. Who will give my hand squeezes? Who will sing me to sleep? Who will help me get the blood out of the sheets?
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That's it. There you go. In. Out. In Out. In Out. You can do this.
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I hear... I think I hear the car. The noise; the screaming noise the wheels make as he comes around the corner. Like a little bunny makes when the cats catch them. I wonder. Are there bunnies? Are there bunnies in the car that scream when he drives? Is he stamping hard on the bunnies when he goes around the corner?
He's going to be here. He's almost home. He's almost home and he's going to be mad at us because the chores aren't done. We should, we can still... OUCH!
Ouch! That hurt me- you're grabbing me too tight and my hand, your nails, my hand. Please. We can not do it. We can not do it today. He won't have to know what we were thinking. What we were going to do. Please.
You could stay. You could stay and I'll be good, and he won't drink anymore, and we'll feed the cats wet food and the bunnies will be safe, and.. and there's the car.
Oh. He's home. He's back. I can't look, feel my three squeezes! I love you! I love you! Are we going to do this?
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Slowly. Slowly. In. Out. In Out. In Out. She's been so good. So quiet. Just a little longer. Just a little longer and we won't need to worry about him anymore. She can be a normal girl and not be afraid to sleep. And he will be.... he will be gone.
One squeeze for Yes, little Bunny. And- NOW!
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Comments (24)
Fantastic work Judey!!! Excellent detail in such a short piece and the emotion is riveting.
Very well done story and so much detail for a such a short story!
Great job building the tension!
Story has an allusion to family abuse-you portrayed the fear so well with the usage of stream of consciousness! Great job
That was great. I felt the tension rising as I read.
Pure, authentic, and powerful!!! Tension, anxiety, and thoughts are awesomely amazingly expressed and written!!!!❤️❤️💕
Omg. This is incredible. The tension builds as he gets closer. I could feel it! Excellent job.
1. I loved the structure - it made the conversation easy to follow. 2. OMG. This is one of your best! It really evoked the anxiety that the characters were feeling - enough that I had to do some calming breathing. Great work
This is so scary and sad! And very, very well written ❤️❤️
Ooooo the tension you created is masterful. I found my own breathing pattern changing. This is excellent Judey. 😎
This worked perfectly! I could feel the tension in your words. This is wonderfully done and a great entry for the challenge.
Wow...😭
I think the structure worked well. The build up was on point and kept me reading til the end. I was rooting for them. It reminded me of my sister and I and how I tried to protect her from things that shouldn't happen.
Excellent if worrying and creepy take on the challenge
The silence thought of an abusive victim in a toxic relationship
This is brilliant Judey! They way my own blood curdled when I read about blood in the sheets! Chilling!
Stunning
Whoa. Judey, this is stunning. A+, truly. As an exercise in showing, you excelled here. Damned if this isn't chosen to place in the challenge.
Somebody got what was coming to them! Felt all the tension and anticipation. Great job, Judey!
Sad but so good, I was hanging on every word. You conveyed the fear and hope here so well, great job!
Hi 'j' ~ Look who's back with vigor - Never did much nervous Nail Polishing - as far as you know. But I could always GiT-U. 'j'
It's painful and beautifully written in such way that it becomes lighter to accept to digest 💜💗
Powerful conspiratorial, desperately felt angst so powerfully expressed in the simple squeeze of the hand
This is sad and well written! ♥️ your great! I wish I could write like you! Where/how did you learn?