I am a Christian too
I believe in a God that loves me
I believe in forgiveness
And I had never carried so much shame until
I aborted my child
At the age of 16
A baby myself
Do you think that women and girls
Just stand in line at the abortion clinic like it’s some
Kind of party
For sinners
For women who just couldn’t
Control
Their earthly desires?
While you sit back
And judge us
Take a minute
To find some grace
To find some humility
Try to understand
That we didn’t all grow up
In homes that were safe
Sometimes getting pregnant
Unexpectedly
Is the wake-up call
We need to change our
Lives for the better,
But
Does it mean now
That we have a one
Strike and your out card
There are no second chances
You made your bed
And now you must lie in it
And give birth as a drug and alcohol
Addicted teen
With a father recently released from prison
And an abusive mom's boyfriend
A mom who makes minimum wage
And there's not enough to eat
None the less
Care for a child
There is a 2 bedroom
Low-income apartment
Filled with a smoky haze
There are parties on the
Weekends
Filled with drunken
Arguments
And rage
There are police visits
When the violence
Gets too loud
There's a teenager in her
Room scared to death
To walk out of her room
To see if her
Mom is bleeding
Once again
To see her glasses broken
And lying on the floor
Again
To find her crying
And taking him in
Like nothing has happened
Again.
To pretend to raise a child
In an environment like that
In my senior year of high school
Would not have worked
I was in survival mode
And got the hell out of there
Myself and
Never went
Back
Please don’t
Believe
That people have abortions
Because they want to
It is not a choice
We take lightly
It is not a celebration
It is devastating
And sad
It hurts
It’s scary
It’s shameful
We can’t tell our friends or family
Our co-workers
We can’t tell
Anyone really
I had to borrow money from
My grandma
To get an abortion
300 dollars to be exact
How would I have been able to
Manage?
My meth-addicted boyfriend
Later shot himself
And here I sit
Able to type these words
With 2 healthy kids
And I am proud of my mothering
I am proud of those places
I have overcome
Because I
Had a second chance
Do I not think about
It is every year on August 24th
The day I took
That 7 week old
Babies life
The day I wept
And ate saltines
For weeks to keep the
Nausea at bay
And tried to work
And pretend I
Was okay
How I had to steal the pregnancy
Test
Because 7 dollars was too much
And because I
Was too embarrassed
To ask for one
And too scared to
Confide
In an adult
Because there were no
Adults
That would
Be able to
Empathize
With a girl
Who drank too much
And let her guard down
How shameful
Really,
To not be perfect
Right?
How shameful,
What a disgrace.
Is that how they want
Me to feel?
Is that how they want us all to
Feel?
Well, guess what?
We don’t cower easily
We light up when things
Are taken
From us
Like women's rights
And privacy
We don’t like
Men in our
Business
We need the freedom to make decisions
That are informed
And not based on rules
Trust me that no woman
Celebrates the
Death of an unborn
Child
We need so many
More resources for the children
On this earth
With mental health
Issues, Foster care,
Families in poverty, homelessness,
Addiction
Can we please fix
This first?
Women are going
To flee
To other states
And overrun their
Resources
This isn’t a party
And planned parenthood
Isn’t the devil
I love children
I love them
I see them, I care for them
I am passionate
About them
I work with them
I mother them
They need us
And I see what happens
When parents can’t
Provide the love
The nurturing
And support they need
We must help these women
First
Not by making them
Pay for their past
And pay for their mistakes
Can we give more resources
Around birth control,
And teach these
Moms to be that
They are worth
More
And that they deserve the world
You know, I bet
They have never heard such
Kind words
About themselves
Instead of holding
Photos of dead
Fetus’s to shame them
Could we hold their hands
As they are making
One of the hardest
Life or death
Decisions
They may
Ever have to make
About the Creator
Melissa Steussy
Author of Let Your Privates Breathe-Breaking the Cycle of Addiction and Family Dysfunction. Available at The Black Hat Press:
https://www.theblackhatpress.com/bookshop/p/let-your-privates-breathe
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