Goals, GOALS, Goals

GOALS! That is the story of my life, rearranging goals and creating new ones to replace the forgotten (on purpose). I created so many goals for myself this year and I am trying to realign with the initial ones by doing check ins every once in a while. I typically do this to avoid my own work (bad habit but necessary one) and today happens to be that day.

In Mid- 2022 fashion, I have acquired my Amazon and Google stocks for the year and am excited to own a whole group of them after the split. I'm in in it for the long haul and although mny stocks are currently down by 10k, I believe it will go up before I need the money. Stocks to me are really just a place to have my money grow over the next 5 years (hopefully) and by the time I am ready to purchase a home, I hope to have them in case of an emergency payment. We shall see!

I think it is stupid for an employee to stay at a job purely to obtain the stocks from it (Especially if the company's stocks have dropped so drastically, in my opinion)

I am currently at 120k out of my goal of 150k end of year and feel as if I am on track despite the stock drop!

In terms of my personal life, I have no idea what it is! I have been fantasizing what it would be like to date my 41-year old friend and although all logistics point to how terrible an idea that can be, I still half-heartedly desire it. I am interested to see how our friendship will progress and if I will ever actually go on a sugar date before this year ends.

I must admit that I make one of the worst sugar babies because I am defiant and hate having people's expectations over me, even tho it is reasonable on their part to do as sugaring is in its own form a nicer way of saying prostitution with more gifts and foreplay.

I did not end up meeting with my fan because he began to gross me out and tried to entice me to drive 60+ miles to see him. I do not plan to drive without any purpose for a man that has a stupid bottle of pino noir. And with today's gas prices being 6 dollars? You have got to be fucking kidding me. I can buy that anywhere and for you to insist that I wear a bikini? When I don't even find you attractive and you don't have money to afford me? Fuck off.

I am still hosting as my main source of entertainment at the moment- but am genuinely going to consider switching my career to event planning because I just feel like I would be happier there, even for a bit. Or maybe I should find an evening event planner role that I can work at a hotel or something. I don't know. All I know is I need more out of life. This recruiter job is easy, but I get bored working from home and I want a space where I can fuck around a bit more. I miss that environment I would get in a classroom setting where I felt a sense of collaboration.

After I achieve my financial goal of 150k, it just keeps going up huh? Just like inflation. I just can't wait to buy my first property! It's going to be such a game changer in my financial career and I am excited and nervous for it at the same time. I don't expect things to go perfectly, but I do hope that for the most part God is with me guiding me through this crazy life. I'm a walking ironic ball aren't I, talking about God and sugaring within the same story.

My ex had contacted me earlier this week to send me a picture of a stupid meme that I could've care less about. I hadn't blocked him, but unfriended him for this very purpose. So he could reach out and I would know about it. Blocking is no fun for those who love drama. The tarot cards said that he would be coming forward, but at this point I genuinely do not care because my eyes are set on the 41-year old. Or not, we will see how it plays out by the end of the year. If we ever decide to actually vacation together, there is no way we are leaving that room without completing the deed. That is my life update, see you all next time !