Dear me from 10 years ago

Dear 11 Year Old Me

You must be very confused about who you are. But it is okay because you are very young and you are still figuring out who you are. You are falling in love with some kid that you will not talk to anymore in a couple of years but that is okay. The reason behind that is because you learned a lot from it and some things you did not. You learned what true friendship was and how it was to be loved. What you did not learn was to stop pushing people away. You have to work on that. I know you are very insecure about your glasses and how you dress and how you do your hair. But you should not be because doing all that made you realize how bad you dress and now you dress so much better. Also, its okay to dress bad because everyone else did and you are only expressing yourself and that is how people remember you and honestly the way you look is one of my favorite memories of you. Do not be afraid to try new things even if you have never done it before because honestly you will regret them in the future and you will always think about it no matter how small it was. You will have a lot of regrets when you were older. Also remember that even if you try something new and it does not go according to plan, please do not let it make you upset. You need to experience new things in order to learn what not to do and be more experienced. Do not fall in love to quickly, you have a lot to work on yourself, and chasing after boys will make it harder on you. If they like you, they will come after you, do not chase after them. If someone really cares about you, they will be there for you and not leave you hanging. You do not know how to be treated yet and I know no one has taught us but it will take us some time. I am telling you it is going to be hard figuring out you should be treated but you will do it. Go out with your friends please, I know there were times where I was scared to go out with my friends and I regret it so please stop being scared, you will have fun and you will make so many memories. Please I swear to god do not be insecure. That is the one thing that takes over your life and you do not do a lot of things because of it. It will take over your life, even right now, ten years later, you are still working on it. Just do not care about what other people think about you and just be yourself. Learn how to drive as soon as you can, i swear it has been ten years and you still do not know. Girl, get your license and stop being a chicken. As you grow older you will think of things you want to do and not do them. One of them will be staying in band, you should do it. Who knows, maybe you will like it. Also, pay more attention in school, I know you heard it so many times but you will need it for high school and college. I am going to be a hypocrite for saying this because I still do it but get off your phone more often and go out and do fun things. Lastly, just love yourself and do not ever be insecure.