Vanessa Baltazar
Bio
Just a girl from Los Angeles
Stories (8/0)
I Am Never Leaving My Kid Phase
I do not know what it is about my childhood that made me this way. Parents? My sister? Family members? School? I honestly have no idea. I guess it is just the harsh reality of life. Growing up, I guess I had a pretty normal childhood. My parents are alive and not divorced, there is no traumatic death in my life, or even a lost limb that has affected my life. One thing that I did notice was that there were always adults around me at my home and never people around my own age. Of course I had my sister around me but she is 5 years older than me and she was either with her boyfriend or with her friends. My cousins were always older or younger and even they had cousins around their age and I felt more like the odd ball out. I can not blame them though. I have always been introverted for as long as I can remember. I remember that I was always the quiet kid at school since kindergarten and seeing how talkative the kids around me were. During recess there were these two sand pits outside and they were next to each other and there were these three girls playing in one pit and I would see them but I would always end up playing at the one without them and just be by myself. This lead to me only having a handful of friends that I actually talked to and always picked last when it came to group projects. I was not really bullied, there were a handful of times where kids were mean but never for a long period of time. My best friend in elementary school was my laptop so I could watch movies and it basically became my comfort zone. During that time I would see my classmates hanging out with each other and make plans to go to the pool or the movies. I was never invited. This is not a sad story I promise. I guess in a sense, I did not get to live out my childhood dream and hang out with my little friends and go sleepover at their house and stay up watching movies while playing with barbies.
By Vanessa Baltazar2 years ago in Humans
Dear me from 10 years ago
Dear 11 Year Old Me You must be very confused about who you are. But it is okay because you are very young and you are still figuring out who you are. You are falling in love with some kid that you will not talk to anymore in a couple of years but that is okay. The reason behind that is because you learned a lot from it and some things you did not. You learned what true friendship was and how it was to be loved. What you did not learn was to stop pushing people away. You have to work on that. I know you are very insecure about your glasses and how you dress and how you do your hair. But you should not be because doing all that made you realize how bad you dress and now you dress so much better. Also, its okay to dress bad because everyone else did and you are only expressing yourself and that is how people remember you and honestly the way you look is one of my favorite memories of you. Do not be afraid to try new things even if you have never done it before because honestly you will regret them in the future and you will always think about it no matter how small it was. You will have a lot of regrets when you were older. Also remember that even if you try something new and it does not go according to plan, please do not let it make you upset. You need to experience new things in order to learn what not to do and be more experienced. Do not fall in love to quickly, you have a lot to work on yourself, and chasing after boys will make it harder on you. If they like you, they will come after you, do not chase after them. If someone really cares about you, they will be there for you and not leave you hanging. You do not know how to be treated yet and I know no one has taught us but it will take us some time. I am telling you it is going to be hard figuring out you should be treated but you will do it. Go out with your friends please, I know there were times where I was scared to go out with my friends and I regret it so please stop being scared, you will have fun and you will make so many memories. Please I swear to god do not be insecure. That is the one thing that takes over your life and you do not do a lot of things because of it. It will take over your life, even right now, ten years later, you are still working on it. Just do not care about what other people think about you and just be yourself. Learn how to drive as soon as you can, i swear it has been ten years and you still do not know. Girl, get your license and stop being a chicken. As you grow older you will think of things you want to do and not do them. One of them will be staying in band, you should do it. Who knows, maybe you will like it. Also, pay more attention in school, I know you heard it so many times but you will need it for high school and college. I am going to be a hypocrite for saying this because I still do it but get off your phone more often and go out and do fun things. Lastly, just love yourself and do not ever be insecure.
By Vanessa Baltazar2 years ago in Confessions
Bodies are Normal
Bodies Bodies have marks. Bodies have blemishes. Bodies have discoloration. Blodies have freckles. Bodies have stretch marks. Bodies have oily skin. Bodies have dry skin. Bodies have lumps. Bodies have bumps. Bodies have more weight in other place. Bodies have razor bumps. Bodies have cellulite. Bodies have one boob bigger than the other. Bodies have different colors. Bodies have hair in random places. Bodies should be able to wear whatever it pleases. Bodies do not have to please others, only please themselves. Bodies do not have to be told what to do. Bodies have different types of smells. Bodies have tan lines. Bodies have muffin tops. Bodies have wrinkles. Bodies have grey hairs. Bodies have double chins. Bodies have frizzy hair. Bodies have chicken skin legs. Bodies should be normalized for how they are, not what they are suppose to be.
By Vanessa Baltazar3 years ago in Poets
I went to Warped Tour '18 and I knew nothing about it.
So my friend convinced me to go to Warped Tour because it was going to be the last tour and it was not that bad of a price. I went because he really wanted to go so I went with him because it was something really special to him. If you do not know what Warped Tour is, it's basically a Tour with many punk rock bands performing in one place. They have bands such as Sum 41, Bowling For Soup, Falling In Reverse, Black Veil Brides, Asking Alexandria, and many more. I have never been into punk rock. I only listened to pop music so this was way out of my scene. But I went anyway cause why not?
By Vanessa Baltazar4 years ago in Beat
Why You Should Go to the Rose Parade
The Rose Parade is a celebration on New Years in Pasadena, where people can watch floats, bands, an even see celebrities. It always starts at 8 AM and you can sit where ever you want. You can either buy seats on the bleachers or just sit on the curb of the street like most people. I love going to the Rose Parade because it's so much fun every year and I love to sleep over along with other people. I am going to tell you why you should go too. In a different story, I will tell you tips and tricks if you plan on going to The Rose Parade. It's free if you plan to sit on the curb, but it costs money if you want to be on the bleachers.
By Vanessa Baltazar5 years ago in Wander
Reasons Why Disneyland Is Bullsh*t
Ahhh Disneyland. The happiest place on earth. Where kids and adults can see their favorite characters, watch amazing parades, and eat tasty food. But is it really worth it? I don't think so. Over the years, Disneyland has changed so much. And I'm going to be talking about how these changes are bullshit.
By Vanessa Baltazar5 years ago in Wander
First Day of College at Pasadena City College
It's hard leaving the people you have known all of your life. The same people you have known since kindergarten. The friends you have made. The memories you had with them. Then, when you become a senior in high school, that's when you start to realize you will probably never see these people again. But it's okay. Because everyone needs to go to the next step in their life. If it's college, working full-time, taking a year off, or even doing nothing at all. This is where everyone grows to become who they will be in the future. And my future is attending Pasadena City College.
By Vanessa Baltazar5 years ago in Education