Crushed in Silence
The last email/letter to my father
I stand before a tree,
My knuckles clenched till white,
And my tears stain my sight.
I wonder what will be.
And, oh we have not spoke,
Have not seen each other.
Though we talk to mother,
Yet, still I feel the choke
Of silence on my throat.
And the falling leaves mock
Each year counted by clock
The scars you left, swell, bloat.
There is nothing to say
To make you pause, turn back,
Other than to attack.
Until I go away.
I stand at this old tree,
Watch the limbs tilt and sway,
Recount a distant day.
Memories I did see
But not you as you live.
You left the child you raised
Deserted the girl praised.
Years of anger you give
As a parting gift to sort
Things I did file away,
That haunt me still today
And to my heart report.
I stand here left to cry
As silence marks the bark
Like the gallows at dark.
With many reasons why.
If one day we would talk,
Would there be praise and pride?
Or nothing left inside?
The silence grates like chalk.
Why are you my father?
Why were you ever kind?
The cruel things stain my mind
And your name they author.
But I cannot find it
Like many words you took
When this oak tree you shook
Forgive you, I forge it.
I do not find you there.
I marry without you.
Walk the aisle in blue.
To the north I do fare.
I will harbor winters,
And relish in the spring.
In the mountains to sing,
Pull from my heart splinters
That you left so much of
Days ago in the cold.
When dare I to be bold.
And lost, now is your love.
I stand before this tree
With many tales to say
That do not reach today
The ears of you or me.
About the Creator
Laura Lann
I am an author from deep East Texas with a passion for horror and fantasy, often heavily mixed together. In my spare time, when I am not writing, I draw and paint landscape and fantasy pieces. I now reside in Alaska where adventures await.
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