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Some days, it feels like two small stones live pressed against my temples. I don't feel actively distressed or overwhelmed, I'm not dehydrated, I've breathed deeply...
A Generation of Angst
In 1985, I was about 14 years old and in the eighth grade. Where I come from, we have Junior High schools, so I spent three years in Junior High, seventh, eighth, and ninth grade. Looking back there were some of the most angsty and defining moments of my life.
Fun Times At Vanity High & Afterwards
L$D - A$AP Rocky This song was peak senior year me. It describes my most intimate thoughts and private emotions. Teenage me was a whole mess that couldn’t really think of anything past that for the most part. It just describes where my mind was at. It describes everything I ever wanted and couldn’t have at this time.
Outsider By Nature
I remember it vividly. I was lying on a beanbag in my friend’s bedroom while she unwrapped the plastic off a brand new album. The very first notes captured my attention immediately. We laid there for hours, replaying the cd in the visibly dusty and aged boombox over and over and over and over again. I begged her to copy it to a cassette for me.
I was the only girl growing up with 4 brothers who all happened to be inherently very talented musicians. A lot of testosterone around.
The Soundtrack of Adolescence
Recollecting the playlist of my youth is like retrieving a time capsule buried 10 years in my mind. Under the painful memories, depression , self-saboteurs and darkness, just to retrieve the one thing that kept me breathing ... surviving to be here to write the playlist of once a trouble young girl : My Creative Zen MP3 (cause I couldn't afford an iPod) , filled with anthologies of music around the world.
Numb but Full of Emotional Pain
Teen Angst Playlist I grew up in the small town of Plainfield, Wisconsin. To give you an idea of how small, I graduated in a class of fifty. I was a stereotypical “nerd.” I loved school, but not for the reasons most people think. School was an escape from everyday stressors and home life. My parents were separated. I went to my dad’s house on the weekend and was with my mother during weekdays. Each set of parents had a very different type of lifestyle. I was constantly having to acclimate to rules, different believes and overall environments. Adding this to my teenage hormones and feeling often was more than I could handle.
So Many Feelings, So Little Room
Angst. The formal definition of which is: a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general. This feeling was not an isolated incident for me nor was it so for any of my peers or anyone who has lived between the ages of 12 and 19. If you skipped this stage in development, I might say I envy you. In reality, though, my experience has defined a great deal of who I am which is reflected in the playlist below.
If Nothing Else, I Was Creative
The year 2000 should have destroyed the world as we knew it. At least, that's what a lot of people believed and told me as 1999 drew to a close. As if Y2K wasn't terrifying enough, imagine knowing that your coveted "teen" birthday took place in that year. It was dramatically fated.
How to Disappear Completely
I'm standing in the shadow of the most staggeringly imposing building I've ever seen. I have to crane my neck painfully to see the grotesque, stone-carved gargoyle faces adorning the walls, the tops of the imposing gothic spires stretching skywards above me. The castle is an awe-inspiring, commanding presence - and I live a stone's throw away! I'm in a new city, on the cusp of a new life, alight with possibility. Tomorrow is my first day of school. The weight of expectation on my shoulders feels heavy, but I can bear it - I can bear anything. I'm a Bright Young Thing, ready to take on the world and win.
Shades of teenage angst
Doubt there's any other age or age group or phase of life which has as high a variance between the start year and the end year. It's almost a crime to club it into one neat packet and label it teenage.
The Soundtrack To My (Past) Life
When I think back to my days spent in middle school, I remember being obsessed with My Chemical Romance, wearing excessive black eyeliner and band tees to school with skulls on them (and secretly being afraid of getting in trouble over it), and wishing I was as cool as Peyton Saywer from One Tree Hill with her sexy convertible and incredible taste in music.