Most recently published stories in Beat.
Feely Tunes for an Existential Cocoon: Be the Main Character of My Teenage Angst
I enjoy songs that are tangled with melancholy, nihilism, ire, and pain; I always have. When I listen to them now, I'm just going about my day with wonderfully mastered, beautifully sung background music, but adolescent me hung onto every word, lived in the acoustics, and embraced the emotions. I felt like they were speaking right to me; the music was narrating my life. I was never the social animal in high school, nor was I the bookworm or jock or artsy type. I was just a subtle blend of just a smidge of everything which seemed to amount to having many friends but none too close. It was basically being an un-lonely loner. Having everyone at arm's length was a bittersweet thing; it suited my weirdly borderline ambivert personality because no one else seemed to be like me (I know, I KNOW, how cliché), but it made me question whether I'd ever have a close circle of people around me. I was always very introspective, thinking about how my life as it is, a precursor to a young adult, is all I know, the most important thing to me, and yet there are also so many more years ahead of me that seemed to be an endless road with no direction in sight. My mind felt so unruly and unclear that it was like the static on an old box TV. I walked down the hallways of my high school, rode the bus to and fro, and perused the aisles of the grocery store and the library blasting my playlist and blocking out the world around me. From me, my oversized hoodie, skinny jeans, high-top sneakers, earbuds, and 4th gen iPod Touch to you - let's relive my teen angst.
The Hearing Mirror
Music is the universal language, a mixture of chords and melodies that speak to the human soul regardless of culture. It is the thing that is so deeply personal that there are clear divides in taste and palatability, yet it connects so many people of similar affinities regardless of national borders. It can comfort, empathize, and encourage in the span of several minutes. It inspires us, it can set the mood for a romantic dinner or get the entire audience pumped inside of a nightclub. For many, the music we connect to during certain points in our lives floods us with memories of those times, serving as looking-glasses into when we connected with a particular song. For me, music was my guardian angel, my reflection, and the guiding force which helped me find my identity.
Up, Down, Up: A Song List
J ust like everyone else on the planet, I was lucky enough to grow up during the best years of music. My adolescence began with the millenium and involved headbanging, crying and finally dancing through the decade. These are the songs that helped to make me, or perhaps helped me to survive becoming me.
Can You Explain This To Me?
"Can you explain this to me?" My mother's voice was deliberate and her choice of words concise. That was how I knew she meant business.
The 10 Commandments - The Rockstar’s Guide To Life
I picked this book up at HMV today. The title bought me in, along with the rockstars on the cover. The discount sticker helped too. For those who don’t know the Q magazine is a prestigious music magazine in the UK. I remember it had it‘s own music channel at one point, don’t know if it’s still airing, as I don’t watch much telly nowadays. Editor, Ted calls Q the greatest music magazine in the UK. I have a feeling that he really wanted to write Q is the best music magazine in the world.
I curl my legs under myself, reaching over the nightstand to pick up my earbuds. I tuck them into my ears and the plug clicks into the socket. Then I click play.
This one is for the Loners
You are the black girl that sits alone during lunch time every day. You don't speak much, and not at all if you're not addressed. You don't know where you fit in, and don't know how you got to that point. Maybe it was easier that way, because it didn't feel like you were trying so hard to be someone you weren't. Along the way you lost yourself. Socially awkward and perplexed with overwhelming anxiety. You sit outside lone at lunch scribbling song lyrics and drawings in your Moleskine sketchbook hoping that time will pass by faster. You silently hope that your life will get better because at that moment, everything is shrouded in hopelessness. In your eyes is sadness, brown orbs begging for help. No one looks your way, so you translate the desperation in your drawing and written words. Your art and writing speak for you
top 10 songs you should have in your playlist
1. runaway, by AURORA This song perfectly captures the airy, free feeling, with the indie-pop vibes and beautifully carved lyrics that paint the perfect picture in your mind. The best song for a chilled out lazy car journey, but also good for heartfelt times.
Say Hello to My Friends Angst & Anxiety
At this point in my life, I know Angst and Anxiety pretty well. Constantly following me around, I've learned about their cues enough now to know when they are going to show up and what they are going to say to me. "What if you're not good enough?", "What if they hate you?", "Do you actually deserve to be here?". Ever the toxic friends, they never really leave you alone and constantly convince you to put yourself down. If you're dealing with the same issues, check out these 26 songs below and see if they help drive A & A away. This is somewhat of a cafeteria line of songs where there are five in each separate genre, so feel free to mix and match what songs make you feel the best.
How I Narrowly Escaped Being Buried Alive in the Blues
When I think of my teens, I think of the blues. Not just the musical genre, but the feelings of heartache, disappointment, and despair it represents. They come with the territory when you’re coming of age, and I came of age at a time when the blues genre was having a resurgence. Everyone from the Rolling Stones to Frank Sinatra was singing the blues. They had good reason, too; we all did. They were dark days.
The Rise and Fall of Jim Morrison
The Rise and Fall of Jim Morrison Some would say it all started in July 1965. America was in a fragile state, in the midst of the Vietnam War. It was a time of confusion, yet also a time of revolutionary change. It was a time when people were yearning to find their purpose on this big, beautiful planet.
I am Feeling a Little Peculiar
If you were anything like me when the teen angst set in, then you too reached a point where Taylor Swift, and Selena Gomez's Disney Channel masterpieces (as magical as they were) just didn’t cut it anymore. I needed something darker, angrier, and louder.