Bipolar for 49 years, chronically ill for 36. The voice behind the Speaking Bipolar blog. Wrestles taxes by day, wrangles words at night. Thinker. TV Addict. Poet. Links: https://speakingbipolar.com/socialmedia
A Day in the Life of Bipolar Disorder: What It’s Like To Live With Mental Illness
Can you relate? I wake up and can’t get out of bed. I feel like a pink hippo is taking a nap on my chest. All I want to do is sleep, but I force myself to get up, anyway. It’s been like this for a few days now. Every morning feels like an impossible battle just to keep going.
One Dinner With Friends Reminded Me Why I Avoid Social Interaction
I’m notorious among my group of friends for turning down social invites. It’s amazing I have any friends left as often as I reply with a ‘no’ to their invitations. The guilt crushes me, but I feel helpless most days to offer another answer.
How Buying a Hammer Helps Me Be a Better Writer
As I approached the three employees, I could hear them discussing the previous weekend’s party. “Excuse me,” I started as I approached. “Could one of you help me with a hammer?” (It wasn't really a hammer, but for simplicity, let's substitute a hammer for the product I needed.)
The Inspiration You Need To Never Give Up (With 7 Useful Quotes)
Any hope for survival seemed impossible. The team of 28 men had been away for over 400 days in one of the most inhospitable environments in the world. Their trip to explore the wonders of Antarctica was one they feared they would not survive.
7 Life Lessons Learned From My Father’s Cat
Her concentration is unbreakable as she crouches close to the ground. Every muscle stays perfectly still except for the tip of her tail, which wags ever so slightly as the only warning to her intended victim. With eyes fixed on one spot on the ground, she’s a statue waiting for her prey to make a terminal mistake.
5 Ways Journaling Can Improve Your Mental Health (And Change Your Life)
I never thought I’d be the kind of person who kept a journal. In fact, I used to think that journaling was only for tween girls. I pictured pink books with gold locks and pages filled with descriptions of cute boys written with bright-colored gel pens that smelled like fruit. As an eleven-year-old boy trying to find his place in the world, it didn’t look like a road I wanted to walk down.
What It Feels Like to Experience a Panic Attack
There was no air in my lungs. Struggle as I may, they refused to expand. Instantly, beads of sweat broke out over my entire body. My throat felt like it was swelling shut, and the sounds around me became increasingly muted. My vision blurred and then everything turned dark gray.
Confronting the Challenges of Bipolar Dissociation
Trigger Warning: Self-harm, suicidal ideation, childhood abuse, bipolar dissociation - When I was in my late twenties, a well-meaning psychotherapist diagnosed me with dissociative identity disorder (DID). Doctors used to call DID multiple personality disorder. The diagnosis was my first connection to bipolar dissociation.