Bipolar for 49 years, chronically ill for 36. The voice behind the Speaking Bipolar blog. Wrestles taxes by day, wrangles words at night. Thinker. TV Addict. Poet. Links: https://speakingbipolar.com/socialmedia
What It Feels Like to Experience a Panic Attack
There was no air in my lungs. Struggle as I may, they refused to expand. Instantly, beads of sweat broke out over my entire body. My throat felt like it was swelling shut, and the sounds around me became increasingly muted. My vision blurred and then everything turned dark gray.
Confronting the Challenges of Bipolar Dissociation
Trigger Warning: Self-harm, suicidal ideation, childhood abuse, bipolar dissociation - When I was in my late twenties, a well-meaning psychotherapist diagnosed me with dissociative identity disorder (DID). Doctors used to call DID multiple personality disorder. The diagnosis was my first connection to bipolar dissociation.
People of Earth, These Are the 7 Resolutions You Should Make This Year
Dear Humans, I am Beezzeeppo from the planet Faldarrone, located in a nebula so far away your minds couldn’t comprehend the distance. For the past two of your Earth years, my training assignment centered on watching you fleshy bipeds as you scurried around your planet. While much of what I’ve seen is appalling, I see many of you striving to do better.
Listen for the Silent “I Love You’s”
"Be careful,” my new friend called out to me as I was walking out her front door. “Um, okay,” I called back. It seemed strange to me, a young man raised in central Wisconsin, for my new southern friend to tell me to be careful.
The Revealing Tale of Two Couples House Hunting
The orange and red leaves of the sugar maples outside the home glowed in the golden sunlight. Inside, Opal arranged fresh-baked cookies, marbled cheese, and oval crackers on crystal platters. She hummed along to a song in her memory as she reflected on bittersweet memories of her 40-year history as a real estate broker. This would be her last open house.
The Pain in My Heart Pushed Me to Start the Speaking Bipolar Site
“And he's bipolar. You know what that means.” My boss was 10 minutes into his gossip fest. Today's victim was one of his oldest friends. I heard a litany of all the things his friend had done wrong, and all the poor choices he had made. My boss boasted of their 20-year friendship, but I couldn't help but wonder if it really was a friendship.