Roberta Russell
Bio
Nothing extremly special about me, i'm a loving mother of two with one grandson, i enjoy life and what it has to offer, i try to be non-judgemental, honest, reliable & open minded
Stories (5/0)
The devil is knocking(Merlot wins in the end)
There I was in the most compromising position...I new my gut was right, This latest mark was suspicious! At first I couldn't wrap my head around why I felt so un-easy the truth was more obvious than i'd realised, I got smacked full speed in the face, one almighty blow & I was out cold, I woke up prostrated on a bed completely bare! As naked as a new born! Disguise removed feeling like a bloody amateur... For the first time ever I'd let my guard down & I was about to pay the price, how dearly depended on who was doing the interrogating. All the years I'd been an assassin I was always thorough! it didn't prepare me for what happened, I'd always prided myself on my work, my attention to detail, gathering of intel, I'd fucked up royally... especially on my lack of judgement & not following my own original instincts, I was feeling rather annoyed with myself I was royally pissed off, something so simple! it had been staring me in the face all this time & I completely missed the bloody obvious what an utter fuck up, I was beyond the point of being irritated I was pissed! I was seething... when I make it out, this mistake will never be repeated. Fuck how could I not see this one coming damn he was good.... I totally under estimated this Man, I didn't see the enormous picture I doubt anyone would have! Except for one? Igor you fucking snake! He'd kept this major detail out of the files he'd relinquished, A well guarded secret... you wait you filthy little man! There'll be know place on this earth where you'll be able to hide, I'm coming for you... not even the deepest darkest hole will save you this time. I don't know how long I'd been out for it could have been an hour or even longer? Was I underground & how deep Mmmmm the ringing in my ears still rather loud & I couldn't distinguish any sounds, Their were no windows from what I could tell, The light above my head made it hard to see my surroundings the heat coming off it though kept my naked body warm...what hit me a Mac Truck? Whatever it was it hurt like hell my head & jaw were throbbing, It was stinking hot but when bearing your all who gives a damn! As time went on I become more & more thirsty, lucid my lips were becoming dry & starting to crack I made sure not to lick them they'd get worse. I needed a plan! I needed to get the fuck out of here, What were my surroundings? How far underground was I? If that was even the case! All these Un-answered questions... I needed to find a way out, I seemed to be getting weaker, I learn't a technique while being trained when I was younger it's pretty basic really, I started counting from the time I woke up so far I was at 960 which meant it had been 16 hours give or take a few? If I'd been out for an extra 5 that mean't I'd been here for nearly 24hrs! If I wasn't of value they would have knocked me off already & I wouldn't be strapped to a bed... They were after info or they were just some sadistic twisted mother fuckers either way I was still incapacitated unless I got my shit together I wasn't going any where, I'd already spent way to much time lying around & I needed to come up with a full-proof plan.
By Roberta Russell3 years ago in Futurism
Dead to rights (follow up from Merlot wins in the end)
I'd had a few weeks off enjoying the ocean with my two boys Belgian Malinois I'd had a hectic month so time off was just what I needed, every time supplies were required I'd put my usual disguise on! As far as the locals new an elderly lady in her 55's to 60's lived here not a young curvaceous 5'2 brunette, I'd had so many aliases I had forgotten my own birth name! I'd gotten use to the many disguise's & was becoming to comfortable being someone else I never celebrated a birthday as I didn't even know when the actual date was! Come to think of it I wasn't even shore of my actual age, Years ago I new that this would be a solitary life! One of loneliness & that! Is why I chose this profession, The first kill was the hardest! Once I'd learned how to cut off my emotions it just kept getting easier! In fact you could say I'd become colder than Ice. We were getting low on stock & I needed to do a run into town, I lived so far away from civilisation I doubt anyone would even venture out this far and even if they did I had made sure they'd never find my place, all access roads or tracks leading curious people to snooping any where close to my retreat would eventually take them back to the local beach cantina it was a long roundabout trek but it worked out all the same, I'd covered my tracks like I've said many times matriculates in everything I do, check! triple check! never leave any stone unturned always stay three steps in front of everything & everyone.
By Roberta Russell3 years ago in Criminal
This isn't goodbye
It's know ones fault really it's just something that wasn't expected or foreseen, by the time you read this I would have already boarded a plain for destinations unknown this will be a new life a fresh start! There's know point looking for me or calling as I've already taken care of everything in in other words i won't be contactable until i find my forever home, Once I've established myself I will be in touch. I'm sorry I know that this is going to come as a shock to some of you as you all thought I was in a loving happy marriage unfortunately it wasn't as it seemed turn's out I'm a better actor than I thought! I was desperately lonely & so insecure of my future. I'm not shaw when I finally realised I was know longer in love with this man all I know is that I saw inside myself & realised I didn't want to end up like our Parents, I want an open honest happy relationship with someone who know's nothing about me or my background, I want to spend the last part of my life being happy, not constantly questioning my choices this time! I'm jumping feet first with know general plan really other than I now want to be happy, I've realised that I've been miserable and living in a loveless marriage for Mmmmm well who knows how many years I guess? don't get me wrong I will always love the father of my children but I finally realised I wasn't in love with him, Can you imagine how draining & exhausting verbal abuse can be especially when that person is drunk it becomes to overwhelming & the fact that he never listens to me, he never stuck up for me he left me in jail, I was never secure nor did I ever feel secure he always made me question myself & I always felt inadequate, what I've realised is that everything has always been one sided in our marriage why else do we have seperate bank accounts? This certainly didn't help matters much it just made me more aware how selfish he really is, I was becoming numb not showing any emotion it was almost non-exisiting, I asked him if he could pay for me to have surgery when he received his inheritance as I wanted what was called a Mummy make over, which would have cost $25.000 & he said No, I think thats when I realised it was a one way street all his way & nothing my way, I thought of all the things I'd sacrificed over the years & why I'd done that or made those choices, the more I thought about it the more I didn't like where I was in life every year I would contribute to the house in one way or another, I'd paid for the solar panels so it would cut the cost of our power bill just so I wouldn't have to listen to him whinning about how much the power cost, I paid for the patio so it would take the sun off the back walls & so it would finish our house off, I'm always using my money for quite a lot if I wanted a social life if we needed extra shopping for all bits and bobs here & their, I often wondered how much longer I was going to put up with this person that I use to love & whom I held in high regard? What was the triggering point for me truthfully honestly! See these are the things I've been over thinking about for way to long, I really don't want to think about them any more, I just want to enjoy what life I have left not having to over think Issues's, never having to worry about anyone other than myself! Selfish I know but when you look into yourself like I have you realise that life is to short and when you look at how you've spent your life you automatically realise how much you've wasted it on a person who doesn't value you or your thoughts at all, when reality hits that's when you start looking into yourself as to what your going to do how are you going to change things for you to have a better life, or are you going to continue on this roundabout ride leading to know where except for where you've just come from.
By Roberta Russell3 years ago in Confessions
The Merlot Wins Everytime
I'd recently been told that my writing was very graphic, precise & articulate, well that was news to me as I'd always assumed I had terrible writing & spelling well that was according to every teacher whom ever had the privilege of being my tutor, I absolutely hated school it was either to boring uninteresting repetitive or all of the above at once. It didn't help that my mother use to belt me every time I miss read or spelled a word wrong, I'm not sure what was worse the belting or going to school they both were equally terrifying & just as unhealthy, so as I got older so did my desire to become someone that know one would mess with or even consider me a threat till it was to late for them or anyone who got in my way, but while doing what I enjoyed so much I wanted to be payed exceptionally well for my profession.
By Roberta Russell3 years ago in Criminal
