Justin “Jud” Haywood

Joined May 2021

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Justin “Jud” Haywood is creating Stories about BPD/EUPD, the Military and life.

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Change
Change is hard when you’re trying to step out of comfort zones, even if that comfort zone is suffused with darkness and unhappiness it’s still hard to take that first step.
By Justin “Jud” Haywoodabout a year ago in Motivation
Starting Afresh
I’m sat at a table in the reception area of The Veterans Community Hub (https://theveteranscommunityhub.co.uk) in Newton Aycliffe, UK, feeling anxious as hell about everything and wondering whether the massive leap my family and I have taken is the right choice.
By Justin “Jud” Haywoodabout a year ago in Serve
Borderline Personality Disorder
I can go for weeks at a time, occasionally months without feeling the shift. For anyone who ever wants to know what Borderline Personality Disorder feels like, it feels like pain ultimately, often chronic and varying in body location from person to person.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Psyche
Mental Health Flap Sheet
You or someone close is having a significant emotional event What do you do? Combat Indicators Signs that you or someone else are having a significant emotional event are going to differ from person to person and can even be different indicators at different times for the same individual. The Military does a good job of teaching “Absence of the normal, presence of the abnormal” to troops but it’s also completely applicable to a civilian, so even if you’re unaware of poor mental health indicators you will notice a change in;
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
Who’s Justin Haywood?
It’s hard to give you a snapshot of who I am but here we go: I lived the first 30 years of my life on the Isle of Wight (UK) and grew up in a big old house with woods to roam in and a stony beach to explore.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
Guns Platoon Cadre
I started shooting at 5, growing up in a place where I could earn pocket money later on by selling Pigeons and Rabbits to the local Butcher in the village.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
Mines
Alpha Multiple 2 Platoon A Company 1 PWRR and Mobilised 3 PWRR Telic 13 Iran-Iraq Border 2009 I’m the dude with the long antenna sticking up from my set of body armour in the photos.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
Reality
In the Real; The Apocalypse? I hesitate to use the word love, so often misused and quoted and if I’m honest with you that would be a far lesser description to use for how I felt about my experiential reality now.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
In Merlin
Germany, Live Fire Build Up MRX/FTX 2008 I kinda cringe to be honest when I look at that first photo. It was taken in Germany on a huge training area where we were going through the build up of live fire drills.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
The Tank Park
The Tank Park, The Contingency Operating Base (COB), Southern Iraq, 2009, Telic 13, 2 Plt, A Coy, 1 PWRR, 5 Rifles Battlegroup
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve
Epiphanies
I’d like to tell you about the things I’ve been doing the last week or so and about all the soldiers I’ve rang up and talked to this week, some for the first time since I left Paderborn bound for Chilwell and demobilisation 12 years ago.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Psyche
Welcome
I figure you’d better know something about me if I want you to read my musings. As of August 2021, I’m 40 years old and have what’s called either Borderline Personality Disorder, or Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder.
By Justin “Jud” Haywood2 years ago in Serve