Josie medrano
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An empathic's perspective to a 2020 world
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letter to an addict
Dear friend, I’m no therapist with a Dr. Degree. I'm you I went through it and one thing I have learned when I was speaking with my therapist, ”yes I do talk to a therapist”and my view on that is they open up your mind to understand yourself at an inner emotional level that we shut ourselves down from. We try to figure it out on on our own and sometimes we do, it's called self-healing most hold this power. I did a lot of self-healing and I got to the point where I ate healthy, exercised, and I live a healthy life. I don’t drink alcohol like I use to or sugary drinks. I look into my emotions before I react but there’s one thing I can’t and couldn’t heal myself anxiety. That's what is left from my drug abuse, moving onto alcohol abuse, and finally being emotionally abused by my partner Who I also developed an addiction to it's called an attachment, we do this with people and belongings. I couldn’t let go of this toxic relationship even if I knew it was toxic even if I knew he wasn’t going to change. Why? because I am a good person with mental problems. Reality hit the other day I was talking to somebody with an addiction on Facebook and I realized that I had the key all along to moving on from this, I will still need therapy I will still need medication but I’m taking the steps to change what was breaking me down little by little. I was stuck in thinking about the past and hoping for a better tomorrow. You know the what we say,” I will leave this tomorrow I will start tomorrow”. I realized that the issue is when being an addict we don't live in our now, we don't change today the moment, or the action we are presently living in because we are stuck in the past mistakes. What we could have done differently or the loss of what the addiction left us, understand this the past, it's gone it can't be fixed or changed going back would not heal us it being us back to the same place, but we need to forgive ourselves for it even when others can't and won't let us forget about it. They shouldn't because what they say or think needs to not matter to heal, because we need to stand tall and understand that they have a right to feel this way towards us but we hold the power today to choose who we want to be for the future the tomorrow. Most of us see that person in the future and that’s why we say,” tomorrow I will not use drugs or alcohol won't eat unhealthily and I will try to exercise”. Tomorrow never comes because you’re trying to live in the future you’re not living in your present moment in the right now. That's the key live in the now in this moment change this moment. It won't be easy because we must be present at all moments, anyone or anything that is causing stress or emotions of guilt get away from. They will understand when you are at a stronger mindset to withstand judgment and peoples doubts because people like that will always exist to trigger us to going back to the past but we can't run away from it. So at that moment bring yourself back quick and say to urself I know who I am and my life will show it one day because right now is about building and knowing that tomorrow is already today, because the tomorrow you so wanted is already happening. I was there once and now I am dealing with the anxiety but I am living better and at peace. Its not easy but it's harder to live in the past and worried about the future but never in the present moment. I understand you and feel ur pain you are not alone.
By Josie medrano3 years ago in Psyche
Young Reckless and Empathic💋
When I was young, lol I still am I know I know..... Again, I should say when I was a teenager I did a lot of dumb stuff sneaking out, partying, and never did I think something could happen to me it's like I always felt safe protected regardless how reckless I was till this day, weirdly, I never feel alone or fearful of others. Still, I should I am only a woman that my strength does not match a man. Back then, I was not aware I was empathic... But now it all makes sense how I knew who was who and who I could trust and why all around me I heard Storys of girls going missing, raped, or kidnapped and I was like that could have been me but then got over it, and I was back to sneaking out and hanging out. One day I became a mother, I became fearful of driving, going out, hanging out with friends because if something happened to me who would love and take care of my baby the way I do. Also I saw a world that made me scared for my baby and how I needed to protect it, when I see kids in foster care or with relatives it's not the same as parents love or maybe in some cases it's better but it was a growing issue back then and now because of drug abuse, broken relationships, broken marriages,and openness about having one night stands, friends with benefits, it’s now an even growing issue, kids are being forgotten and abused. To this day, I still feel guilty when I go out and have some ”me time,” but I understand I am a mom a good one. It's okay to have fun but to be responsible finally that fear is gone but then now is excepting that there are a lot of bad people out there and even if my kids and I are safe, Many aren't human trafficking is on the rise, and kids suffer every day while we complain about being stuck at home or having a guy not pay attention to us or having no party life or many many other insignificant things of life. Me for example, complaining about my kids and work and family not allowing me to grow the business of my dreams and having to be patient with old stuck mindsets............I am blessed, I am an empath. I'm in the process of knowing how this can help others like it did me.🙏
By Josie medrano4 years ago in Humans