Jess Allen Gribnitz
Bio
I'm a simple individual with simple needs, a place to love & a place to be. I seem complicated and mysterious, but most do not see, that I truly enjoy love and everything that is free. The simple thing that I love to say is I love to be me.
Stories (4/0)
Foster The Love
From the day that I was born, I never imagined that I would have a deep a love for anything in the world. I'm a bit of a downer at times but my parents have been my saving grace time and time again through the periods of my life that I thought I would not be able to make it through. From the perils of my authority issues in high school to exploring the darkness of my mind in the Army, I have never been so sure in my life that I have ever had a deeper love for anyone in my life besides my parents. Even when I fell into bad habits and a river full of blackened excuses in my teenage years, my parents helped pick up the pieces of my soul to construct it back together so that I could become the man I am today and have experienced some of the best experiences I could have ever asked for. I've been in FFA/4H and garnered massive awards, become a multi-instrumentalist, have had a fascination with paleontology and astronomy enough to garner education credits and even become a 35G through their assistance and I personally feel that I would have not been able to accomplish these feats without their assistance. From a young age, I've always had a deep seated fascination with accomplishing anything I could of importance because I didn't want to become stuck in the mud of life with nowhere to go and nothing to do but my monotonous 9-5 and the same delegated meal structure that the world had intended for a large populous of humanity. Even with my dark thoughts and subjection to a suicidal trepidation, my parents looked past my dark theology on the world and its suitors and found a bright light that could thrive. My dad, technically my step dad but he has been my dad since I was 2 years old, inspired a thriving imaginative yearning for me to follow to get out of the dark threshold of my young mind and to dedicate myself to become exactly the person I wanted to be...outside of the box that had been dedicated to many out of complacency and ill fated designations to the valley of death. My mom inspired me to love the ones that stood by me because even though I might feel as if I was destined to be the one in the rain by himself, a self designated loner, that I could count on the people closest to me to assist me to my dreams of grandeur and self love. They reminded me that even though there will be dark times and that some things in life seem to only present a wall of obscurity and hatred, there is always a way to break through the wall and to become victorious of the mission it just took time to "embrace the suck" in order to find another system that could correlate a better future for myself and my younger siblings. Being the eldest of my siblings is sometimes the most difficult feat I have ever had to accomplish because even though I sometimes feel like I'm the worst ever at this(imagining me having children is a nightmare to me), my parents remind me that I have the capability of being the best role model to them and eventually an even better parent because these kind of theologies require trial and error with a pretty large handful of sometimes absolutely screwing it up. Therefore, I could not be the person that I am today without them and their lessons. I was an idiot teenager that thought that I knew everything but now that I've grown older, and hopefully smarter, I've taken note to their charismatic lessons and realized that they carry much more weight in my life than I could ever properly explain. There's no way I could ever explain how truly thankful I am to have them in my life because they saved me. They saved me from my bad habits, they saved me from being the worst version of myself, and most of all...they saved me from ending myself and giving in to the demons that have encompassed the deepest chasms of my soul. I will never accept defeat and I will never quit and I have my parents to assist me to this goal of living my life to the fullest so that I can escape my deepest fears and truly succeed. Thank you for reading my story I hope that you too have someone to save you like I have had in my life.
By Jess Allen Gribnitz2 years ago in Families
Chase and I
What seems like a love story from the start, began with a Facebook story that would change my future. For the past few weeks before Chase came into my life, I was looking for a potential pup to be my emotional support pupper to be my companion because even though I'm in the military, I've never felt like I truly fit in with humanity and I adore animals. Therefore, I was on all of the Facebook groups, shelter pages, petfinder.com, etc. to find the perfect dog to suit my needs. I've always adored the big macho breeds like Rottweilers, Staffordshire Terriers, German Shepherds, Great Danes, Doberman Pinchers, etc. because of their macho look but also their lovely attitudes and their great personalities. In which case, those were the exact breeds that I was looking for and even though I had found a few pups that would have made great companions, I had found that many of them had been adopted or were no longer available in the system. Just about the time that I wasn't sure I would be able to find one of my closest friends, my mom forwarded me this post on Facebook about this lovely pupper that I had instantly fallen in love with when I saw the pictures. Chase was on a euthanasia support page and did not have much time left before he was on track to be put down via their schedule. He had been picked up by animal control because he had fought for his life when a German Shepherd had attacked him, and Chase was defending his property. Yet, I didn't see a vicious killer in his eyes, I saw a soul that just wanted to be treated with respect and loved just like any of us would want the same. Therefore, I saw the information for the shelter and immediately called to reserve a reservation to meet my future fluffer boy. My family and I then traveled to Tyler, Texas where Chase was held and when he was brought out for us to meet him, I immediately knew that I was meant to bring him home. He was an immediate lovely soul to me, my youngest brother, aged 5, and my niece, aged 18 months, and just wanted all of the love of the world. I finished his paperwork and listened to the droning arrogance of the animal control officer that picked him up of just how "aggressive" he was and even as annoying as she was, I didn't care because I knew I just found my best friend in dog form. (Note: she received one of the biggest eye rolls that I have done in the history of my life. Luckily for me, that old wife's tale of how your eyes will get stuck at the back of your head wasn't true because my eyeballs definitely were staring at the back of my skull.) We climbed in the van and headed back home and the entire time, Chase watched cartoons with my youngest brother and I and I knew it was a match made in heaven. Chase now resides in my home and is the most spoiled pupper that can be with his wet food cans and toys galore. We spend time snuggling together and being absolute smushes just because we can (plus I found out that he is an amazing friend to read with/listen to some great tunes with hint: he loves chill hop) and I can't imagine a better dog friend to be my emotional support pup then Chase. I should be able to bring him with me everywhere I go, and I believe that we will both adore just being in each other's company. I absolutely adore him and look forward to our years together endearing the world with our presence one paw/one foot at a time.
By Jess Allen Gribnitz2 years ago in Petlife
