Fernanda Satumbaga Balan
Stories (17/0)
I’m Sorry
I don’t know how it started. I don’t know why it happened. Although I must admit, I did care and even loved him. Silly thing’s I’ve said and done like a young one in love. Placed me in a magical moment’s I couldn’t described. I enjoyed his loving words that has a place in my heart. Even imagine being together, how silly is that? It all seems real like a fairy tail. The maiden meet her prince into the horizon for they ride. The promises of love still rings clear in her mind. Will she ever forget the flitting moment’s they have. She wonders about him, was it real or not. If it is, will he be okay or did I broke his heart. Or he is laughing at the fact, that someone has really fallen in love. I’m so sorry, for having to put a stop to it all my love. If he really has loved me, will he recover from that. Will he find it to forgive me at all or hate my guts. I’m so sorry, that it ended my love. I pray that god bless you to have peace and serenity inside.....,,,,, By FSB 06/25/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Clouded
In the midst of aloneness, an action chosen. Not taken in consideration the feelings put at risk. Forgetting, not seeing, the dangers ahead. With eye closed, She plunge into the unknown. The joyful sounds flavorful sweet nothings, she absorbed all the sweetness she longs for. Mistaken the joy for love, she closed her eyes and fell into her own imaginary world. Deep down is the feeling of unjust. Ignoring all the signs in front of her eyes. For blinded by the excitement that over welms her heart, she sneaks like a thief into the night. But the nagging feelings that bugs her inside, couldn’t be ignored. Put her action on hault. The blindfold is taken off. Blinded no more, in regrets of wrong choice. Realizing she was nothing but a fool.............
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Finding Solace
The days are cloudy, chaotic and uncertain. Somehow you made it easy with your presence. Giving me the time, I don’t know what I’d do without your your company at all. For everywhere you look is nothing but trouble. With you being there, I forgot time. I even forgot the chaos at hand. I found solace being with you. I found security and feel protected by you. I thank god, it’s still possible, to lived life that’s bearable. Your the special someone given to me by up above, to go through this uncertainty in our lives. Thank you my friend for being there for me. You made my life easy, that I can sure say........
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Miles Apart
I think of you every minute of the day. Though you’re far away yet I feel you close to me. The talks we have is treasure to me. Seeing you brings happiness and smile in deed. I missing you when I’m alone. Nights are long reason unknown. Could it be that I miss you , and wanting you more. You’re miles away from a distant shore. Though I know we stare at the same sky, with you there and me on the other side of the world. Miles away yet feel so close. As if I can just reach and you’ll come when ever I call. Miles away across the sea. Yet I feel you hear with me.....,.
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
My love
The attraction is undeniable. The feeling is pure. You don’t know how it feels to be lured by your stares. I dream about you when my eyes are close. I see your face through the days when Im alone. The feeling get stronger and the longing is intense. I wonder do you feel the same? Or it’s just me in my silly brain. To love you is heaven in it self. To care for you, I’ll give it my all. The love you’ll feel, will make you know what love is. Yes, love is what I feel for you. And I will live to love you till the next life and more.......My love is pure it’s from within. My love is eternal for its made in heaven and it’s out of my control..... By : Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 06/02/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Faith
In my life, Ive endured a lot. Though it all it laid heavily in my heart. At times I thought, I can’t handle it anymore. My heart cries, for I am tired I asked my self why? What have I done? Do I deserve all these anguish given in my life. Through it all, years after years I go on. It came and it went, Im still here. I’m in your hands that’s all I know. One thing I know you have always been there, carrying me as I go through my trials. I don’t know the reason, I May never know why. All I know is that my faith is stronger and you’ll never leave my side....
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Undeniable
undeniable I’m yours. Although not appreciated. Don’t know why you look my way, is it just for adornment? For love was not felt once you got me. I sacrifice my being to you. I chose to stay for I have loved you. Though it’s undeniable, that that lied to me, I want you to know I’m yours to stay. Together we move on not knowing where we are. You said were like friends, but why? What happened to the promise that was made long ago. Now we are just friends according to you. ...By : Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/28/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Mental illness
Misunderstood that’s what they are. A family member is acting up. We assume that they just wants attention. Oh, they are the difficult ones. That what most say. Have an attitude problem. What else rebellious?Those are just some of the thoughts that comes to mind . Why? It is because we don’t understand. We have the close mind attitude. Or we just don’t have the energy to deal with their tantrums. They are hurting. They don’t know them selves that they are in a situation. That they are sick. That they need help. They are alone in this ugly world. All they can think of is why? Why is my family not caring about the way I feel. No body understands me. They are shunned away. They are ignored. The reality is, they are suffering. With mental illness. Not their fault. We are all at fault. They are misunderstood . They are mostly alone! By: Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/22/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
OUR WORLD
I look around oh! ,what I see. If I really look I see nothing but beauty. It’s all around us but we don’t see. It’s in the flowers when they first bloom. It’s in the sky with clusters of clouds. It’s on the birds that fly above. Even the rain is beautiful to watch, to hear the sound in every drop. The deep blue sea that hold a lot of mystery’s is magic in it self oh! what a beauty. The creation of humans a gift from god , capable to love and be love. The new born babies when they first see the light . With a mothers unconditional love starts. Our world is a beauty if you only try to see. It’s not all ugliness as you can see... By : Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/22/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Family
I’m troubled. I can’t help it, my tears is rolling down my checks. I can’t stop my emotions for I’m missing you guys. I feel so all alone. I remember the days when we used to laugh together. Silly things it doesn’t matter we laughed. How we use to lay down on mama’s bed like little chicks around the mother hen. I remember the talks we use to have when we get the lectures that last for hours. As if she really wants to plant the words on our minds. I remember the outings like fishing or hunting. I remember when mama stays up cause we’re ill. I remember mama Would feed us using her hands like little birds we wait for our turn. I’m missing those days for now I’m alone. Haven’t seen you guys for I don’t how long. I’m missing the love we used to share, that’s seems to have went away. It bring me tears just thinking about it. For at one time, it seems that loves all around to stay I thought the bond is enough to hold us together. But you see I messed up, but I’m only human I made mistakes . Can’t you forgive me, give me another chance. For I’m really missing you, my family that I used to have......... Forgive me, I’m so lonely it’s tearing me apart....... by: Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/21/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Longing.....
The day I laid eye on you, is the day I’ve sin. The day I laid eyes on you, is the day I lost my self. Why I feel this way I don’t understand. All I know is that I’ve been restless since then. It is gods plan for it to happened? But why I asked my self that. It is forbidden for neither one is free to love..., It pains me to even think of that. That this special feeling is a forbidden love. Everyday I long to to see I you there for me. To say hello or just a photo maybe. I long to see your face even once in a day. Longing, longing, longing for you can’t you see.....by: Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/21/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets
Destiny
It’s been written, that’s what I’ve heard. It’s our destiny So I was told. Did I stumble upon you or it just happened to be. No matter what it is, I’m still delighted it happened to me... A face in the crowd , how can that be? For me to get magnetized I can’t break away. I felt the connection, we are a lot alike. Everything you loved I loved. Is it planed or simply a chance. Well it was said everything happens for a reason. What ever it maybe, you got me at first sight. I’m hooked Im magnetized And longingly missing you in my life. What ever it is, destiny, planed or chance. You are the one thing I welcome in this heart of mine...... by: Fernanda Satumbaga Balan 05/21/2020
By Fernanda Satumbaga Balan4 years ago in Poets