I am a mother of 2, 27 years old who has been writing journals for years now. I have maybe 7 years of stories going way back. lots of heart ache, sexual content, personal life, addiction, depression to good moments as well. Enjoy!!!
Post Partum Depression, my experience.
Its not a real thing they say. PPD is just something that you are putting in your head. "you're just crazy", they said. I had my first born when I was 25. She was born in 2019, so she just turned two. Being pregnant with her was amazing, It was everything I thought the experience would be. From having back pain, to sciatic pain, to not being able to walk a block with out gasping for air. It sounds horrible, but that's what pregnancy is and feels like. At least for me it did the first time around. Towards the end of my pregnancy something went down hill. I was having contractions, got to the hospital and after being in Labor for over 32 hours she was finally born. My first born. Prior to her I had a miscarriage when I was only 18. Things happen for a reason and back then I was definitely not ready to have a child just how I was not ready to have this child. Or so I thought I was ready.
Love Story, or just a fling
My Boyfriend, now my fiancé. have been together for almost years now. We started dating in 2018, but we had know each other for about 10 years now. I remember the first time we met up, I was 18 and I drove to his house. Mind you, I am 27 years old now. I pulled up to his drive way, which was kind of small and sort of difficult to get in. So he said "Here, I will park your car inside for you if you are having trouble". I'm a great driver but he just wanted to test drive my red sports car I had back then. He invited me into his room. First thing I noticed was the mattress on the floor and a lot of tagging on the walls. I did feel uncomfortable but nothing out of the ordinary. You see, I live in South Central, LA. To see tagging does not really make me nervous anymore. Although I was 18 at the moment I was a little scared.