" You are like the flower that blooms" Those were the words coming out of my neighbor a's mouth a few days ago me, it sparked the light inside of me that has been deem for a very long period. It always amazes me when strangers that don't know you or your life story are the ones that make you feel good on the inside. I overheard him and neighbor b that he is close with talking about me outside on his smoke break, of course, I eavesdrop on the conversation to listen in to what they were saying, what they don't know, what nobody knows is that I've been going through some very personal things so the words that were coming out of their mouths meant more to me than ANYTHING at that moment.
January 24, 2021, will make it two years since I've lost my beloved best friend. I've lost him to cancer and I'll never forget the day the vet told me that it was no amount of money that I could have spent to save his life. I only had $100 and that was how much it cost to get him seen in the doctor's office, with no help and no extra money I spent all I had to find out what was wrong with him as he was walking around with a big lump on the left side of his neck. It was a rough summer for me, my fur baby, and my family as we were moving out of our apartment and trying to find another one to move into, it was hard so we ended up moving to a motel 6 for a week or so and then moving in with my sister in a nice suburbs area.
I’ve been waiting for this for years now and now I am finally ready to give it up even though I deleted Instagram and made another one only for positive platforms it’s still a pain. Just like so many of us, I have been hiding underneath social media for years it has controlled my thoughts, the way I view myself, relationships, and my mental health. I know social media can be good but in my opinion, it’s more bad than good, I mean in all honestly how many “good” things do you see versus the bad? Social media was made for one reason and that was to take us away from reality and glue us to a world that doesn’t even exist. I recommend watching the social dilemma on Netflix if you haven’t already. Social Media is bad for the soul because it doesn't nourish us, it stripes away from who we are. If it were up to me, I would only let the world have access to it for only maybe 3-4 days out of the week, but we all know that’s not going to happen, it makes too much money.