Alex
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Just a 20-somethings with big dreams, a cup o‘ Joe, and a pen.
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How Chronic Illness Gave Me A New Lease On Life
I thought I was doing great when the pandemic hit. I had a full time job (a luxury not many were afforded), my credit card was paid off, and I felt “in control” of my life for the first time in awhile. I had just dropped 40 pounds, was volunteering in my spare time, and had just gotten off of all my depression and anxiety medications. The problem, unfortunately, was that the “in control” feeling I had, was stemming from nothing more than rage. I hated my job - it was one I had scrambled to get when I was laid off due to the pandemic. The work was mundane; scrubbing the shelves of a grocery store for 8 to 11 hours a day. I was really passionate about my volunteer work; however, the line of work took me past all sorts of political jargon and hateful rhetoric. I was stewing in constant state of distress and anger. The medications, of which I was so proud to have eliminated from my life, I had simply dropped without a doctor’s consent. Yes, I had gone cold turkey off of medications whose withdrawal symptoms stated very clearly, “can cause seizures.” Compounded with all of these stressors, came also relational dysfunction. I was seen as a pushover by my peers because I hadn’t constructed healthy boundaries, so I often received the brunt of harsh treatment. The hurt and the anger festered inside, and I became like a grenade ready to explode. I felt betrayed by my coworkers when I learned of their differing political affiliations. I had to take out a restraining order on a family member whose constant barrage of manipulative and hateful verbal abuse had become overwhelming.
By Alex2 years ago in Motivation