Love is Part Xlll

“There is never time in the future in which we will work out our salvation. The challenge is in the moment; the time is always now.”

- James Baldwin

A BUSINESS WOMAN

I need a partner to build with, not a Boss or an Overseer. I'm a homebody. I like being inside with an old movie and a box of wine. I really enjoy the work I do as a I’m content creator but it can take a lot of energy out of you. So, when I'm home? I'm super relaxed and I love it!

I don't hold on to people. I learned in my early 20’s that holding onto someone who doesn't want to be held onto is poisonous for me. That simple action bled into every other aspect of my life. At 34, I can let go of whatever doesn't serve me positively in the snap of a finger. I had to develop discipline and self love to achieve that.

I love that I am building an online community and unique platform because I talk in hilarious statements but create an environment where like minded people can do the same. I create content that will serve an educational purpose utilizing hot topics in our culture and news. I feel fulfilled because I know I'm doing what God has called me to do.

CALCULATED RISKS

My childhood was rough! I had young parents who gave us what they could with what they had. Morals, work ethic, accountability, conflict resolution- so many things were built into me due to coming from a dysfunctional family whose motto may as well be, no matter what, we won't give up on ourselves because we will get through anything together! That has taught me how to do the same in other areas of my life.

My son went onto glory from natural causes in his sleep at the end of 2019, and from then on, my fear has been never seeing my son again. I live in a way that works for me and God, so I shall. Death is a part of life; keep moving.

THE ACHIEVER

My purpose is to inspire others to achieve optimal life in the midst of stress. By walking into my purpose with my platform BOXOUT Stress, I’ve been able to impact people through all walks of life.

I’m a “loner”. I can feel empty without others sometimes. I need to release the thought pattern that everyone means well. I am not in control of how people feel about me so I’ve taken the steps to just treat people accordingly.

I don’t have all the answers. Sometimes it’s better to listen than to speak. You get the best outcome that way. Being able to speak my truth without judgement or misunderstanding allows me to feel free as fuck.

Deep within the walls of my heart, I carry a wound that remains hidden from the prying eyes of the world. It is the wound of losing my father, a loss that occurred during the tender years of my youth. I was 13 when he passed. The pain of his absence lingers, quietly shaping the contours of my soul. Mainly because he never got the chance to see the fruits of his offspring.

In the depths of my being, I navigate the intricate path of healing, seeking solace in the memories that I once held of our times together. The void left by his departure has etched itself into my spirit, leaving me with a bittersweet longing for a connection that can never be fully restored. In the depths of my being, I navigate the intricate path of healing, seeking solace in the memories that I once held of our times together . The void left by his departure has etched itself into my spirit, leaving me with a bittersweet longing for a connection that can never be fully restored.

THE FRESH START

I’m afraid of hurting others mentally, physically and emotionally.

Sometimes you may have to leave some people you love to walk in your purpose. I love being able to pour into others through my platform. It allows me to feel true gratification, knowing that I’ve helped someone overcome.

This world can be a harsh and unforgiving place, casting its judgment upon those who dare to embrace their vulnerability of wanting to love multiple souls (polyamorous is what I speak of). The weight of criticism and the fear of rejection often tempt me to bury my love, to hide it away in the depths of my soul. But, in moments of courage, I choose to defy the shadows that seek to confine me. In hopes of being in spaces with like minded beings.

It was a love that transcended age and societal norms. It found its roots in the connection between a young soul of mine and a woman adorned with the wisdom of experience (but she was hurt to). She was a rose in full bloom, and I was captivated by her radiance.

Her love, expressed in various stages, painted a masterpiece within me. Like a gentle breeze, she nurtured my dreams and ambitions, instilling in me the belief that I was capable of greatness. She offered guidance and support, a steady hand to hold in times of uncertainty but I fucked that up because of societal expectations and judgments. The vast age difference between us cast a shadow upon our connection, and I, like a hesitant bird, shied away from the depths of her love. Yet, the imprint of her affection remains etched within, a reminder of the transformative power of love.

THE GROUND BREAKER

I’m basically David Ruffin and everyone else is the temptations.

I still love to write. That’ll never change. My mind is in tune with divine ideas and I am grateful for my deep love for romantic tales, novels of tragedy and literature of all sorts. It’s hard being a writer during this era where people don’t read as much. The passion is still in me.

I crave love letters and the sound of a type writer at 3 a.m when the world is asleep. In this chapter of my life the only thing I’m striving for is deeper levels of peace.

If I could re-do a moment in my life it would be to actually walk the stage for my graduations with my peers. I went to 4 different high schools, 2 behavior schools and 3 colleges. I have never had a cap and gown. I’ve never been celebrated in this way for my accomplishments. I’ve always had to celebrate silently and solo. I recently realized that one day I’ll be sauntering down the red carpet collecting Grammys and Oscars. My whole life is a plot twist.

I conquer lessons, places, patterns, habits and belief systems so quickly that it’s hard to be present. Constantly living in the future is a burden and I just thank god daily for my blessings. This life I live is beautiful. No doubt about it. I just wish god would let me hold on to something or someone just a little while longer.

PURIFICATION

My perspective on heartbreak and love has shifted drastically. I am starting to see the value of non-attatchment to outcomes and that just because a partnership didn’t work out with someone, does not mean that the relationship was a failure.

There are lessons in love. Reasons and seasons. The only thing consistent in life is change so it is foolish to think that you or your lover will forever be the same. We evolve. It’s better to have loved and lost than to not have ever loved at all. My heart is wide open.

We are shaped by the way we are loved or the lack thereof. When we are loved well, we show up lovingly with joy and excitement. When we are not loved well, we become poisonous to others as our pain and desire for unconditional love and acceptance seeps through us like everclear.

I am reprogramming my mind to learn how to love from a place that is not self serving. Learn to love people for who they are instead of for who they are to you or for what they can do for you is key. Love people because you love THEM, not because there is a void or lack within YOU.

THE MOTIVATOR

I’m Batman and a lazy person at the same time. I feel so free when my mind is calm and I’m free to make any decision.

My purpose is to encourage free thinking and freedom from social norms and social interaction.

I believe that every one has common sense and I also believe that minds can be manipulated so that furthermore, the ideology can be controlled and spread. That makes me think of being a king so I can influence others to follow their own path.

THE FIGHT

I’m not afraid. I’ll defend till I can’t no more. I say what’s on my mind and I’m strategic.

I was poor at a point in my life. Family needed me. In a thuggish neighborhood and I was afraid to walk down my own block.

Now I’m one with the community and free to work everywhere. I am a massage therapist and I enjoy making people feel good, happy, relaxed and liberated.

Photographer : Micah Thompson.