Terrifyingly Excited

Some of you may already know that I’m planning to turn my life upside down in 2024.

2023 was a terribly difficult year for me and it resulted in an intense inspection in where my was life was and where it was heading. The resulting conclusion was that I have been extremely unhappy with my life for over a decade. In fact, I was only living this life for my two sons.

Now, I’ve decided I need to pursue my own dreams as both my boys are grown adults in their late 20’s and early 30’s. As much as it’ll break my heart, it’s time for me to leave them to their lives and travel off into my own future. It’s time for me!

In October 2023 I had a conversation with my employer, explaining I needed to resign so I could find a position where I could work 100% remotely. My current position saw the need to be in the office one to two days a week and that was no longer going to work for me.

Much to my surprise and my absolute delight, my employer advised that he would prefer I didn’t resign as I was a valuable employee and he was happy for me to work remotely moving forward.

This opened up my world and I could begin to plan to follow my dreams.

What are my dreams?

I love to travel. I love my own company. I love solitude. I love Mother Nature. I love my cat.

So why not combine all my loves and live the life that would result from that combination?

Why not?

Because the thought absolutely terrifies me!

Will I be okay out on my own, travelling this vast country? What if I get injured? What if I break down? Can I learn to tow a caravan when I’ve never towed anything in my life? Can I handle a 4 wheel drive, when again, I’ve never driven one before? Can I handle the rigged Australian landscape, in the middle of nowhere, and survive?

These questions absolutely terrify me!

Luckily, my motto in life is ‘Feel the fear and do it anyway’.

And now there’s no turning back — why?

Because yesterday I ordered my caravan. The vehicle that is going to be my new home.

I spent months researching off road, off grid caravans to find the perfect solution that would suit my needs. It needed to have enough solar power capability to allow me to visit the harshest and most remote areas of my beautiful country, but it also needed to be comfortable enough to be a permanent living space — as this was not going to be used for a week long camping trip, once or twice a year.

No, it’s going to become my home.

I have approximately 12 weeks to find a 4WD vehicle capable of towing my new home and to learn to tow that caravan, because in 12 weeks I’ll need to pick it up and tow it away from the caravan manufacturer.

There’s still so much to do before I can hit the open road so I’m probably still 6 months or more from being ready.

I have a caravan to set up, a car to sell as she doesn’t have the capability of towing my new caravan, a 4WD vehicle to buy, complete a towing and 4 wheel drive course and an entire life to discard, sell or give away as it’s not going to fit in my new home.

And most importantly, I have a baby girl, my gorgeous cat, to acclimatise to travelling in a car and living in a caravan. This is a big one as she’s a bit of a scaredy-cat and doesn’t like change — but I’m sure she’ll get there.

So, here’s to my terrifying and yet extremely exciting new future. I hope you’ll come along for the journey.

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