Trigger Warning

She who dares to stand where I stood… Well, the truth is you’re absolutely crazy. You have the least awareness regarding what you’ve walked into. If i’m speaking straight from the shoulder, you’re in the ride of your life sweet girl. But there are a few pro’s to the roller-coaster ride that is, Justin Pettway; you’ll come across those soon, if you haven’t already. In the meantime, enjoy your peace and self-awareness, while you can.

Your characteristics aren’t limited to “crazy”. You enjoy a challenge, you’ve got thick skin (you’ll need that), and you’re about as patient as it gets. You’re recognized for what you’ve been through, rather than what you’ve grown from. And you’ve been through a great deal, an abundance even.

In order to attract such a being, I’m guessing you’re pretty and not short of a “fat ass”. By the end of this, if there is a such thing as an end, you’ll probably wish you didn't acquire these particular attributes. But for now, shall we pretend said attributes are more of an asset than a liability?

You tend to be a bit petulant; although, you’ll find that to be an admired trait by the “he”. A humble soul, you are. You’re everything it takes to handle the complexity of “him”, and that’s the worst part about you.

Speaking of what it takes to meet such an expectation… It’s similar to trying to explain math to a dog, trying to prove your worth to him. The problem isn’t you darling, although sometimes you’ll wish it were. At least then you’d be the one with the power to fix it, right? I dont necessarily believe in the term “impossible”, yet, if there was such a thing as a cousin of the term, dating him would be just that!

I mean, it's not all bad. When it’s bad… it’s terrible and petrifying. But when it’s good... it’s nothing short of amazing. You won't be too keen on letting that part go. You’re a little too determined to give up. Whether it’s because you’re craving that sense of accomplishment or because of your relentless attachment. Letting go just simply isn’t in your nature, especially not with him. If only it could be…

Rumor has it that a tough upbringing can either make or break someone. Well, you weren’t short of that either, to say the least. Absent parents? Check Mental setbacks? Check. Shitty relationship-building skills? Double check. Lack of resources? Of course, add it to the list. But you’re resilient, what an exceptional taste you give.

The vast majority would complain, but not you. No, you’re proud of it. After all, you’re not obligated to share the credit for your success with anyone since no one was exactly present willing to lend a helping-hand. Who’s to complain about that?

Maybe that’s why you’re so nurturing and quick to rescue those in distress. But let anyone else tell it, that’s not what you should be spending your effort on. Nowadays, I would almost agree with them too. Especially with him; you tend to ignore the danger these acts of kindness bring to your heart and self-confidence. But it makes you that much more beautiful, keep it, and run with it- you selfless dumbass.

It’s not like you can keep it from happening anyway. Every call, every text, every plea for help, request for money- you welcome it with open arms and zero judgement. It doesn’t matter if they “deserve” your help; you understand the feeling of needing help… needing someone. It’s a certain “soft spot” inside of you, and you have a lot of those. But hey, if karma is real (because who really knows), you’ll have a lot of good fortune coming your way. Look forward to that, if nothing else!

But dare someone cross you in an unforgivable way. You can be quite spiteful if pushed to that extent. You’ll pick your battles, but revenge seems irresistible to you when your emotions are being toyed with. Unfortunately for whomever lies on the other side of this, you’re talent regarding revenge schemes is difficult to endure. That’s why you feel an unexplainable remorse after committing such acts of revenge.

Silly of you trying to redeem yourself; after all, you did want them to feel your pain. So why attempt to take that back?

Just like the infamous “He”, that’s quite the contradicting pattern of personality you have there. That almost leads me to wonder if it’s opposites that attract…

Tell me, can you pin-point exactly what traumatic period in your life that you contracted this quality? Dumb question, of course you can’t- not by yourself anyway. What a time-consuming task that would be. Let’s conquer that together when you’re done with the current challenge at hand.

Speaking of your current challenge… it’s riveting, isn’t it? It’s almost as if you won’t let go until you accomplish the full extent of this unknown goal you have your sights set on.