I’ve always been an anxious child—swimming lessons consisted of me sitting on the side crying until it was time to go home. Secondary school was fine, other than the obvious reasons to be anxious: Exams, sports day, etc.
Living with a mental illness is fucking rough.
You’re scrolling through Netflix figuring out what you want to watch next; and you start to notice quite a few shows based around the topic of mental health.
I recently read an article about what needs to be done in schools to make sure children are better equipped to manage their mental health. The article prompted me to write about my own experiences of mental health support in schools. The link to the article I read is below.
I'm turning 35 this month and my mental health and mental reflections have been haunting me and dramatically affecting my day to day life. I feel myself at a crossroads and am unsure how to proceed.
One year ago I wrote a blog post about being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
This isn’t going to be about KPOP or anything like that, I just mention Jonghyun because he’s my role model and it fits with the topic at hand. Enjoy. ❤️
Interviewer: When did you began to seek professional help to treat your BDD?
I have been at war lately with my feelings about family. At 35-years-old, you would think I would be comfortable being myself and not caring what other people think. Wouldn’t it be nice if all those memes on being strong and brave were true?
Interviewer: How did your collegiate aspirations relate to your experience with BDD?
“It’s all in your head," “Stop worrying," “I wish I had OCD, my house would be spotless," “You don’t LOOK sick." Those of us with mental illnesses have heard these, and various iterations so many times that for the most part, we can block them out. Mental illness IS in fact in our heads, therein lies the problem. If people can’t see it, they assume it isn’t real. Unlike illnesses that are widely accepted and have outward symptoms such as cancer, colds, broken bones, and such, you can’t see a mental illness unless it has taken hold and caused you to leave marks. There are no outward bruises or tubes and wires, just an ongoing battle in your head.