My struggle and Coping with Anxiety.

My Struggle and Coping with anxiety.

**DISCLAIMER: THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE. I AM IN NO WAY TELLING YOU HOW TO DEAL WITH YOUR EXPERIENCES **

In this article I will be detailing out how I both struggle and cope with my ongoing severe stress/ Anxiety. To start not going to lie and I think most will agree with me it plain sucks.

I wake up and a simple task like getting out of bed and facing the day can kick start my anxiety. This involves wanting to roll over and just start crying because I don’t want to deal with anything. Most days I wish anxiety and stress never existed. Like one day i’ll wake up and feel normal.

Now it is different for everybody. My experiences and what I go through can be the complete opposite than someone else battling the exact same thing. For myself I find my anxiety can go in two directions: Mild or severe. I will of course go through what happens with both.

So a mild anxiety / stress attack for myself can be something as simple as something not going right. Wether i’m working on a task at work or doing small snip its around the house. When this happens I start to get frustrated and mad that its not working out like it should. Or I am doing something and mess it up a little.

When I have a mild attack I often cry for a bit and have to stop working on whats frustrating me. I have to remove myself from the problem so I can being to calm down and realize everything is indeed fine. During a mild experience, I tend to reach for the headphones so I can tune everything out and just let the music flow through me. I also love going for a walk as it not only provides fresh air but allows you to breath and let your anxiety go.

Now lets talk about what happens when it is more severe. A Few months ago I reached my stress limit for the first time. I was so stressed out I began hyperventilating while crying in hysterics. I absolutely could not catch my breath and I struggled to calm back down for a while. I had felt previously that I was getting to my breaking point, like you can just feel it when your about to reach your “had enough” meltdown. Thinking back on it , I can’t remember what had initially started the spiral that day. It was one of those days that one little thing kept happening one right after the other , eventually causes my emotions to irrupt. At first I had no clue what was happening. I felt like I couldn’t breath. It wasn’t until after that I had learned that I had experienced a stress induced panic attack.

That day it took bawling into by boyfriends arms for well over an hour before I could even speak. Fast forward to a week ago from the second I woke up I had nothing but stress, mostly financial. However Its been so bad lately all I can do is cry and continue to cry. I endlessly tell myself it will get better just to give it time. By now your wondering.

Now into the part of how I handle it. Unfortunately I’m not proud with how I handle it most times because it leaves me either embarrassed or ashamed of myself. With this more recent episode unfortunately I also had a eight hour shift at work and no I didn’t call in sick. Trust me it was tempting but I knew I could’t afford to miss a day, so off to work I went.

So let me explain something when I get stressed out as much as I was. The more I try to stop crying the worst it gets. Not going to lie I burst into tears a few times at work during the shift. However I am extremely lucky to work with amazing people and took a few minutes to talk to me each time I burst out crying. The only way I can calm down from a severe stress episode is to just let it play out. Yes that means , bursting into tears when I need to. Unfortunately its the only way I can get through it. I have learned to just let it ride out rather than force myself to calm down.

It’s an ongoing battle that as much as I wish it didn’t exist, does. I will say I have found activities that help keep me calm such as crochet and knitting.

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