I grew up in Fairbanks alaska and I grew up as fast as I could. In a hurry for sure. My mom was a single Parent and when she married her first husband I was out. So then I moved with my grandma who gave me anything and everything I wanted. Now I thought since i didnt ever meet my dad that I was missing something and tried to find it with every him I could find only to end up without a him and no love. Turning to drugs as a main source of LOVE so I thought.
I’ve been in a love, hate relationship with drugs all my life. From smoking weed to the main battle heroine. That’s when the real battle took over at the age of 35 when a buddy handed me over about 3 grams of a black sticky subtles that he said was black. He wanted me to sell it for him cause by that age I was wheeling and dealing everything under the sun and making money to fuel my addiction to crack at the time. So the person I was trying to sell the shit to asked how it was and i Said good I guess. She says you guess. Well I don’t want to buy something that’s not good and we tried it. Putting it on a piece of tin foil and smoking it. After that day I didn’t go every long without doing some cause you can get extremely sick without it. And not so long after that I was putting a needle in my arm. My life after doing heroine intravenously was not my own anymore. I found myself in the system with felony charges and after detoxing for 11 days in a jail cell with the help of DOC I kicked it for the first time. You see if you ever known what it’s like to forcefully stop using you don’t put your whole heart into recovery. So I experienced my first round in treatment, and went back another time to the same treatment center I got sober in the first time. I found out a lot about myself . But staying sober is a hard job and it’s a continuing struggle for me today . I wish I Could tell you that my addiction went away to never come back but it did but now I had enough of that life style and with the help of my higher power first and for most, my family and my true friends I continue to battle the battle with in
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Shannon Pitka
I was born and raised in Fairbanks alaska. I’m 45 and never been married.
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