Do You Have Bipolar Disorder?
My Experiences in a Nutshell
Have you ever wondered if you (or someone you know) might belong among the illustrious ranks of the mentally ill? In particular, bipolar? It’s nothing to be ashamed of, despite the stigma, many people of great minds and accomplishments have been bipolar, or as it was formerly known, manic depressive. It is speculated that Winston Churchill and Vincent Van Gogh had it, and more recently, Russell Brand, Mariah Carey and Britney Spears have been diagnosed.
I’m not trying to sell you on it, it’s not a fun thing to have. I have bipolar1. But sometimes I think, “I don’t really think I have this bipolar thing, I think they must have misdiagnosed me.” And then I remember I am on five different medicines, and I have to keep taking them because life gets to be a train wreck without them. And one of them makes me pretty fat. But I would rather be fat than go through bipolar disorder unmedicated, at least my kind of bipolar disorder. For instance, I’m writing this at four am and I’ve barely slept tonight, I still have the shadows of the mania that are unbearable when I am not medicated. I also take herbal supplements that are supposed to help me sleep, and that gets a little expensive, but when my hypomania kicks in, I’d try almost anything. I really can’t even stand to think about how bad it was at its worse or when I was on an ineffective medicine. The reason these antipsychotics make people gain weight, I think, is because they slow everything down while they slow the racing mind down. The metabolism suffers. If you knew how much I hate being fat you would know how much I really hate what my mind does to me when I’m not medicated. If you go to a mental health center, you will notice a lot of fat people, they will be the calm ones who take their medicines like they are supposed to.
The little skinny ones are usually pacing around really fast and yelling at people who aren’t there. Maybe they have been self medicating.
I know that paints a pretty grim picture of a mental health center. But I feel pretty lucky to have one available to me. I bet Mariah Carey and Britney Spears don’t go to a mental health center. I bet Russell Brand uses alternative medicine.
But back to you. You can probably find some online quizzes where you answer questions and then find out if you probably do or don’t have bipolar disorder. Everyone is a little bipolar, but it depends on to what extent it’s messing up your life, and sometimes, a truly bipolar person is the last to admit they have a problem, due to grandiose thinking, or clouded judgement. Also, to what extent are you messing up the people’s lives around you? Particularly your children’s. Your children, when they are very young, look up to you and adore you, and they are helpless, you owe it to them to do everything you can to be the healthiest person you can be, especially mentally.
If you do decide to see a mental health care professional, just be honest with them. And don’t be afraid to ask other’s opinions of the best Psychiatrist or Therapist to see. But don’t try to guess what they want to hear, and don’t hide or embellish the truth. You just need to find out what they think. Honesty is the only way to go.
Whether you have bipolar disorder or not, you are still the same intriguing person, deserving of love and respect, and hopefully returning that to those around you.