Dear Silence

I am very thankful for the silence that has been my best friend since I knew a bit of truth and some bitter truth of society. I hope to jump from that bit to a byte in some near future. It does not bother me people calling me introvert, wondering if there is something special if I smile a bit more. But if I was not silent or say introvert to you, I might not be fitted to your environment. My thoughts are not likely to get fitted to society but there is this silence, so you admire me.

Being a best friend, silence helped me a lot hiding my weakness, some pain and haughtiness. Also, some beautiful, innocent, and disturbing ideas and thoughts to be discussed, some feelings to be expressed to someone. The ideas and thoughts that came to me as a small seed with the moral of books I studied, but they are grown up very high now, some of them fell down by the storm of my arrogance. But still they are hidden.

It has helped me a lot to be self-dependent. It made me introspect and discover myself, has given me deeper understanding of myself. Detaching me from every external factor it clarifies my values, providing me space and time to reflect on my priorities, actions, and my beliefs. It makes me understand what really matters to me. I have become a master in ignoring taunts and negative people. This silence acts as a shield against them. Sometimes it becomes louder than their words and sometimes stronger than their actions.

In fact, Silence is working as a device that filters my thoughts and speech. It provides peace and calmness to my mind. Being silent in the crowd and listening to others there is the silence that detaches me from everywhere and makes me reflect on myself to give any views. Here I learnt the fine art of listening and art to suspend my judgment. So, it might be the reason that, why my views in some discussed topics become another topic of discussion among my friends, why people remember me even after a short conversation, sometimes silence itself becomes my answer as well and why I got few and good friends.

I suddenly remembered about friends, I have a large friend circle, sorry! I mean I know a lot of people of my age groups. But I can’t call friends to everyone but what to say? the reason I am saying this is, Although I know them, I can’t just talk to them, I just know them in some professional way but not personal. So, among the large group of people I know, very few are my friends.

With some art of getting lost in own thoughts and emptiness, I explore this surrounding in silence and peace which force me to appreciate even the worst things here for its own individuality. Sometimes I got lost in emptiness and wonder where the thought has gone that I just forget. In fact, I have become open to everything, I can’t be rigid to anything even if I want. But might not be open to everyone. My silence has suppressed my arrogance very well and taught me some lessons of humbleness also.

I am very grateful to you, dear silence, that my arrogance and weaknesses remain unexpressed, those seeds of thought got time to grow. You force me to shape myself, get inspired, the most important thing is, made me suited to everyone and admired by many and given me a lot of things. I know some day you will leave me, but I won’t be alone at that time.