The Pain of Acceptance

You changed so quickly as if you believed what was true all along. Created an illusion of what was the fact so you could feel better, but in fact, it was just that, an illusion. Failed to see the truth because it doesn’t make sense, trust in the lies so you can feel the penance. Gave it you're all as so you say, but didn’t consider the hesitation that was given to you because they wanted all your evil thoughts to go away. Try as you may make it work for you, but you don’t want to believe that a heart was pure while yours slowly corrupts.

Move on and progress with life, learn from its mistakes to protect your heart's intake. As warm as the sun but delicate as a flower, once it’s revealed, it’s up to you to deflower. Spark it with flames or torch it with lightning, once you start the pain, the mind won’t go lightly. Keep the peace from any more damage, and fight for a love that becomes a big tragedy. You read these words as if I speak to you, but there’s only one that changed it all because there’s no trusted “I love you”.

Days go by as your memory gets stored in a file cabinet in the corner of the mind. Moments of envy fade while appreciation takes over. The gratefulness of history becomes learned but when new vibes enter, you feel excited numbness. The excitement of what can come from something new is now tainted. No more honeymoon phase, no more pain to be looked over.

Moments become short-handed as your memory slowly bleeds. Scared and damaged, I feel like I did before, I gave hope and love a shot. To be possessed and gaslighted is a frame of betrayal, the first one you hope to be the best but turned out to be the one that will never rest.

The Lone Traveler that ventures through life see it all but experiences with fright. Sorrows of pain and mementos that risen, strength from the reality that reminds you of what’s truly hidden. Force to face the truth by seeing a different reality, close to accepting that your life is part of a lonely tragedy Like Pandora’s box with all the sorrows, you take in their dark so they don’t become so dark and shallow. A Pokémon like Shaymin that’s bright and happy, sucks in the dark matter so there’s no conflict or crying after.

Release the energies when it’s too much, hoping no one is around when it all explodes. Not everyone understands or is willing to care, the pain of acceptance is the ability to atomize the feelings we share. Control what we have and understand the truth, bring forth others, and have those feel the youth. Lost my way which isn’t the case. Numb to life because the memories are too much to take.

Such a good day with no way to spend it, thoughts feel guilty because what you want isn’t worth it. Self-sabotage or chaotic destruction with a careful sense of booze, hurt me more because it’s better to accept the things that I lost and what I can still lose. A positive brain helps to move beyond, and get out of this mental funk because feeling sad is me being afraid.

Afraid to trust as harshly as in the past, to let those whom you let go, travel alone with the info that they know. Pain loves its pleasure and heat to the skin. The hot summer day brings sadness to this Leo on this not-so-Leo day. We accept the things that pain us so, that we can remind ourselves what we are here to live. The pain we don’t find but experience in agony, hope for the best, and freeze over this hypocrisy.