![](https://res.cloudinary.com/jerrick/image/upload/d_642250b563292b35f27461a7.png,f_jpg,fl_progressive,q_auto,w_1024/665ead0daa588e001d2f6536.png)
ΩMEGA
It came like an unexpected breath of relief, the end
All that time under the mask without hope or voice
Years of shame, spirals of guilt and disgust at my brokenness
How could I think the things I thought and be right?
Always told ‘boys don’t do that’, and worse, ‘that’s a sin’
So away, away I put myself, like memories in a lost photo album
Hidden and crushed into the very smallest atoms of truth
Nothing but a grain of sand in the ocean of fear and self hate
While I lived, but never really, never truly was I … alive
But like a single grain of sand irritates an oyster from inside
Biding time, with feelings scratching and flickering thoughts
Like the internal formed beauty of slimy molluscs pearl
Something shone inside, flinging and beating on the cage
Until that one singular life altering moment … the first crack
One small fissure is enough to crumble the mightiest of walls
That was the end’s beginning, something new now … unstoppable
The end of one half-lived life, the moment had come … my Omega
ΑLPHA
Bright bursting light floods me! It warms
Some strange new feeling from deep beneath
Is it? Could it be? Is this warmth … hope?
As if scales fell away from my eyes, I can see
The mask, armour that once hid and protected, gone
There is no guilt, no more spiralling in doubt and shame
I was never broken, never wrong, I was just not yet me
My mere existence, not a sin as I was told for so long
The light of living life almost too blinding at first
A joy never known in simply … being, a life now restored
Finding myself, an adventure to undertake with love
Growing closer to my maker, knowing I was never beyond reach
Discovering who I am, a name that fits like tailored suit … no, dress
A long, hard journey to be sure, with many steps and trials
Reflections in the mirror seeming unblurred, real and true
What’s that there? Something in the eyes not there before
Life and joy shine in them now, looking forward, whatever next
Each step, each day, more its own beginning … my Alpha
About the Creator
S.K. Wilson
She/Her | Australian 🏳️⚧️ Author
My short form writing mostly falls into the absurd, strange and nonsensical. I enjoy writing micro-fiction collections, and exploring poetry.
Debut novel out now! The Knights of Avalon
🩷
Enjoyed the story? Support the Creator.
Subscribe for free to receive all their stories in your feed. You could also pledge your support or give them a one-off tip, letting them know you appreciate their work.
Comments (1)
So brilliant! ❣️