You Would Have Been Out of My Life
if I got another choice
inadequacy runs through the cogs of the wheel that spin in my brain
around and around and around
as i fall harder and faster with nowhere to land
i can't move, can't scream, and with no one offering a hand
i fight the tears that seem to betray me as they fall freely anyway
people look at me as if i do not have the right
anymore i guess i don't
i have long had these fears, long ago was told my answer
but like a child i refused to believe
i had a hope, had a trust that everything would be fine
and then the world has to tell me how small i really am
i tremble and i shake
still no one is there to help me and my throat clogs up
still no scream escapes
and as i slide to my knees i pray to a God that has not answered me before
'what could it hurt anymore'
and within my next breathe i hear a chime in the haze
i look down with all the strength i have left
read the words
then suddenly everything is just a blur
i see spots in my vision
an inhumane scream rips through the air
it shocks me and as i look around
wondering what possibly could have made that sound
then i found
there
just there
lying on the floor with broken pieces every where
my phone with those words
and then i see stars i slam my head back into the wall
that i might lose the ability to think
that does indeed happen but by the worst of luck
my mind was not on my side
as i got for my troubles a headache
i felt dizzy from the hit
troubled by the words
and absolutely at my limit with all that this world could do
i just watch through eyes that show nothing anymore
i lost my zeal for life
i pledge now to be a zombie
and just cause myself the biggest strife
is this some cruel joke or test
i did not ask for this
i did not choose this life
and if i were to make this whole thing happen again
the first time you would have been out of my life
About the Creator
Maya Papaya
A creative at heart but a squirrel for a brain. Making the actual completion of anything is yet to be determined 😂
I am a content creator, writer, and world traveler (still getting to the last part)
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