You

If you did

Would it even matter?

No.

Never.

Because I have been,

Been waiting for God knows

How long.

Oh God,

Help me.

I stayed curled up,

Under empty white sheets.

I turn,

To be startled

By a pillow beside me.

When really

I thought

All night

It was you.

I cry waterfalls,

My eyes the entrance

To deep caverns

That even I

Do not know of.

Do you miss

Me?

Do you love

Me?

As I love

You.

No.

Not love.

I do not love you.

For I have

Fallen in love

With you.

So do you

Understand the difference?

Heartaches

Heartbreaks

My mistakes.

Yet,

Would you

Still love me?

Do you?

I’m alone

In bed,

At 4 a.m.

And I wish

That someone

Was beside me.

No.

Not someone.

Only You.

My feet

They tire

As I walk in

My endless circles

Of

Hope,

Despair,

And

Loneliness.

Do you fall for me?

You take my breath

When I breathe.

I would snap

My neck

For you.

But

Would it matter?

I fear the worst,

As I curl up

In bed,

Alone.

And if you did,

If you loved…

No.

If you fell in love

With me,

All of me,

Would it even matter?

I fear

No.

Never.