I tore the photograph of myself as a child up between my
fingers because I thought I looked frightening.
You said I was wrong.
I decided I wanted to have a rest from doing nothing
but cleaning yesterday and I drank a cup of coffee.
You said I drank too much coffee.
I wanted some more books to read because I
have no friends and nobody to talk to. I lose myself in stories.
You said I spent too much money on books.
I write all my thoughts down such as my to-do
lists and lists about things I might forget that I need for work.
You asked in anger what I’m always writing lists about.
I don’t smile anymore.
You ask me why.
You say I’ve changed my mind.
But you haven’t even tried to know me since I was thirteen.
So how would you know?
Sometimes you doubt I have a mind at all.
Am I a robot to you?
Am I a machine to you?
You give me orders and pretend to love me when
something you want is out of your reach.
And I give it to you anyway.
You thought about having fish for dinner but
did not want to grill it yourself.
And I grilled it for you.
You thought of an idea which I knew was
never going to work but instead -
I went ahead.
I had faith in you.
I saw you struggle and weed out the fakery
in your life. But you see,
you don’t know me.
You haven’t even tried
and no, I don’t think you have faith in me.
About the Creator
Annie Kapur
200K+ Reads on Vocal.
English Lecturer
🎓Literature & Writing (B.A)
🎓Film & Writing (M.A)
🎓Secondary English Education (PgDipEd) (QTS)
📍Birmingham, UK
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