Yes and No

So much about Life is about

clashing of the minds

Yes, yes, yes, you say

No, no, no, I say

Yes, yes, yes, you say

it's okay to assault

to ignore, to deny

to reverse attack

No, no, no, I say

I need my justice

and truth, I need my

day in court.

Yes, yes, yes, you say

it's okay to deceive

to break the trust, to

exploit, to wage a war

No, no, no, I say

this is deadly, a VIOLENCE

I cannot bear. There

are many forms of deception,

of breaking my heart, I now realize.

I step back as my adult self

and look through the last

40 years of my Life through

my child's Eye, but tainted with

the betrayal.

But the worst form of betrayal

is the one where I lied

to myself about what I wanted.

I couldn't face the truth.

I desire,

I regret,

I breathe,

I decide.

But who is there to hold

a mirror up to me?

Who is there to help

me know what I want?

So I go through this vicious

process all over again,

like a potted-plant

who goes through the cycle

of Life assiduously until

it comes to its wisdom

or its senses and its remains float

away like pollen into the wind.