Years of My Life
I want not for despair, only clever dreams and musings of me and you, those who brought us, and the moon.
I want not for your despair, but your warmth and comfort.
Like olive shells drawn in and out by tide, thoughts come
and go. Like love and loss and
Beauty and shorelines.
The pit of July, I smile to the yellow yolk of the sun,
Face flushed, smelling of rum and tequila and saltwater.
We eat pickles and salsa and watch parades of firetrucks
on the 4th of July. Consistent,
while we are between white sheets after hot days,
rises the moon.
I want not for your despair, when the leaves age and fall
And crows weep in chilled air.
Think only of childhood sloppy joes on black paved driveways
And piles of autumn your father raked in the front yard.
Of warm apples and sticky candy.
The noise of Nora Jones humming in the background
As your parents wash dishes at the sink.
As you learn to love, making a habit of thinking
Others are a habit and feeling
it in your chest.
I want not for your despair, when Merry
Christmas Darling plays, and Karen Carpenter lulls you
To nostalgia.
Rather think of deep-fried turkeys and silk scarves,
Perfume and pearls. White snow and black
Clean skies. Lit candles and prayers and songs we
Sing, not for belief, but for each other.
Human and alive in the city in December, smoky breaths
In cold air. We breathe.
I want not for your despair, for spring
always creeps into a beautiful thing. Rain dripping out the window
On Sunday morning, it falls on oceans and mountains
And green fields.
Lilies on the table and bread in the oven, we need not
Repent our bad days as birds sing to us. I wear a pale blue
Sundress to the grocery store, afterwards you watch me
laying in damp grass.
Just lovers, tied in knots, we kiss each other’s
Eye lashes until we can emerge
In humid air on the patio to watch the sun paint, to sailor’s delight,
A red sky.
I want not for despair, only clever dreams and musings
Of me and you, those who brought us, and the moon.
A family calling.
Stitched together by the years of my life.
About the Creator
Talia Nicole
Freelance writer and JD candidate in early twenties.
Comments (1)
Love this, brought up a lot of nostalgia