fuck my body.
fuck me
and all of my twisted and tangled organs.
fuck my refection
and the skin i pinch
between my fingers.
fuck my life
and what it takes to
sustain it.
glucose, fructose, lactose.
kilocalories, steps, miles.
fuck my eyes
because they have never
seen beauty
when they have looked
and then looked away
because it hurt.
fuck gas and bloating
and cramps that raise hell.
fuck the ribs
i used to count
fuck the voices
that follow me around.
you will never be good enough.
pretty enough.
and that is why everyone leaves you.
i will torture you
until you are mere bones.
and then i will torture you again
because the skin you live in -
it is not your home.
but also you cannot escape it
and you have nowhere to hide.
you are mine, darling.
About the Creator
Sara
Don’t look for love.
Be love.
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Comments (39)
That voice at the end -- it was echoing in my head so loudly. I would say that nothing was lost in translation here. Fantastic work, Sara. Wow.
Great piece! 🏆
Amazing!
so honestly raw and viscerally open. A TS well deserved!
damn why does this hurt so much and why beauty money is worth like a coin in a quasar so love tell us why we get fucked when we all put our heart. I want to understand
If this is a true story about the author, it makes me incredibly sad. Otherwise, very powerful words, could feel it inside me!
wow. Raw, powerful. Daring. Congratulations on the recognition So well deserved. 🥇
I subscribed to you with many different types of glands and pieces of me to you, my piercing heart 😍 always
This was really well done. Really raw and powerful! I like the style you used, it felt unapologetic. Congrats on the top story for this one!
Congratulations on Top story 💗🥳Very Relatable cause had stomach issues, it’s manageable now. I love how you end it, owning your body. It is a precious gift for sure, we have to live with it so we have to learned to love it so others can love it ,too.
Fuck! That was incredible. One of the most raw, emotional and true to life pieces of art that I have read in my two years on Vocal. Just stellar writing. Congrats on an amazing Top Story. I'd be a fucking idiot if I didn't subscribe, so I did.
Oh, yay! congrats on TS, Sara!
Wow!!! That's amazing!!! Congratulations on Top Story!!!❤️❤️💕
Amazing work
Congrats on the TS.
Congratulations on your Top Story🤩🎉🎊🫶🏾💯😊🥰❤️‼️‼️‼️
Very beautiful and deep poem. Well done.
Congrats on Top Story, Sara!
Brilliant work!
"fuck the ribs / i used to count." Brilliant line. The most insidious aspect of struggling wtih body image is that because you hate your body, you obsess over it. Very well done here. I'm subscribing.
I want to be as comfortable as you making poems like this, this was hot 🥵
Congratulations!
Hopefully your words will give the person who needs to hear them, the power your experience offers. Great job!! Congrats on the top story
Well...fuck... I like this, and I hope you are at least feeling better...
Raw, harrowing,... very appropriate words to describe this. I pray one day if not already you will know that you are enough and not just enough but beautiful in every way. That being said I've never suffered anorexia however my mental health has been a constant battle for me since childhood so on some level I can relate. God bless...