Wrestling with Myself
Fitting Into Boxes
Staring at the boxes
It shouldn't take this long
To recognize the space where I belong.
Why can't I accept the one in which I fit?
And leave behind the one which has become a miss, rather than a hit.
It was part of how I saw myself my whole life until now
But that doesn't mean it's where I should stick around.
As I finally allow the mouse to click the proper square,
I feel anxious about it, though I know I should not despair.
The anonymity doesn't make the grappling in my soul any easier,
Though knowing others were aware certainly would make me queasier.
Each time I fill out a survey these days
I realize this struggle is surely here to stay.
I move down the row of options gradually,
Seeing which one of the letters of the alphabet soup grabs me.
I started with S when the journey began,
then landed on Q when I still didn't quite understand.
This is where I remained until I took the next step,
When B is where I felt at home, but it was only prep.
For nothing remains, just like a song,
I haven't stayed anywhere very long,
Perhaps that's how it always will be,
But for now, while dreaming of L, I have landed on P.
And I think that's a pretty cool place to be.
I'm proud to say it's the right place for me.
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