Why I cried?

Why I cried?

You abused me my whole life.

You robbed away my childhood.

Remember when Dad died?

You didn't shed a tear.

You moved on quickly.

You moved on with someone who made

my life hell.

You abused me in all forms

physically mentally and emotionally

All I wanted was love and care

I had a parent

Still, I was an orphan

I cried myself to sleep every night

Finally, I thought I was free

I was orphaned the day Dad died

But still, I cried

I cried for months,

when you finally passed away.

I thought it was the end of my pain

But I don't know why I cried for a mother who never loved me.

Until it was not about gain.

It was a dark gloomy night

The sky was also shedding tears

I finally thought I am free

I was emotionless for a moment

Three days later I woke in middle of the night

Crying ,crying and crying

I cried my heart out

for someone who never cared for me

For a mother who never loved

I don't know why

I was supposed to be happy

But I wasn't

It was supposed to be end of my suffering

Maybe I just wanted a relationship from you that you were incapable of

May I wanted some love

that you never gave me

May be I just needed someone to share my feelings with

Maybe it's regret of unfulfilled dream

of having a mother who loved me in this life

I still don't know why I cried when you died?