Why I am so Scared

He sleeps soundly next to me.

I know how to make him fall asleep.

He tells me he loves me every time he thinks it.

He asks me to lay on his chest,

back,

anywhere that’s on him.

And when I was sick he held my weak shoulders.

That’s how I know I’m falling in love.

And that’s how I know I’ll be terrified for when he leaves.

Because, so fondly, he likes to say that forever

doesn’t exist.

But, I see a forever with him.

And if that makes me stupid, dumb, ignorant;

then it just does.

But I don’t want to let go.

Even if he’s gone for years, I wouldn’t let go.

Because he is the only person I want to fall asleep with.

The only person I want to kiss to sleep.

The only person I want to call me “baby”.

He is the only person.

And even if I do let go, nobody will make me feel

as complete as he does.

So I’m scared, I’m in love, and I don’t know what

to do about it.