Why does loving & care for you always hurt
Even when you not trying
You still put me in pieces
I can’t understand
I care bout you
I can’t stop
I tried
I beg
I plead for your love
Never receive it
I pray it changes
But even if it does
What does that say bout me
Am I really that naïve
Am I really this dependent for you’re love?
I ask myself daily
Cause I can’t take the pain
Watching you happy make me smile
Cause you deserve it
& you know that but still
You constantly beating round the bush
Claiming you want this love and affection
Yet brushing it off at every turn
That hurts
That pain I feel every time I see you ignoring
Ignoring me when I wanna give you all my time
Not putting you over my dreams
Yet not wanting to live em w/o you
Ion like it no I don’t
But ion say that cause Ion wanna upset you
But why not?? You don’t care when it’s me
Lord knows I wear my heart on my sleeve
Begging fa ya love yet to receive
Beggin baby pls love & laugh w me
Lemme take you round the world
All white 2 seater just to brag you see
Only wanting you fucking my head up
Cause yeah these bitches banging
But ya vibes unmatch incomparable
Yet it seems we incompatible
Ion care cause ik this your world
My world is yours
My work is yours
But uon want that nooo
You want dem fuck niggas that play
Ion got time fa nun of that
I got dreams I gotta chase
Whether you here or not
Cause I can’t ask or beggin a soul fa shit
Cause all the times I ever did
Everyone showed me why to neva let the bag fumble again
That’s why I stopped smoking and drinking
That’s why I write this lil poetry
To just keep me sane
Give me release from all this anger and pain
Pain of not getting ya love
Anger from not knowing what I did wrong
Maybe we started fucking to soon
Maybe cause I neva got to make love to you
Maybe cause it was materialistic at first
But fuck that cause now you got my heart
And ion want no else to have my shit
This icebox belongs to you
Whether you here or not
Whether she thick or not
Nigga wtf you hollering bout
Bout love I never received
Cause being this naive neva helped
But my past taught me to hold on as long as I could before I broke
From my parents to my friends to my family
Blood or not
I been hurt in ways I never imagined
Almost dying always crying
I can’t take it no more
I just want you to be my escape
The one I’m honest with
The one I share these riches with
But no that ain’t what you lookin fa
You looking for a bitch nigga w no goals
I hate that cause you mad ambitious
But fuck it I guess we close to em the end
Cause every time we talk the convo shorter and short
The reply period longer and longer
But fuck it we young
Everyone tell me forget you
But how when all I wanted was you & me?
Fuck I’m down bad but you just the remedy I needed
It ain’t fair yet I hide it cause why explain when you act how you act
Tired of hoping this work
When ion even care enough to try
So what this goodbye won’t be easy
But it’s the ending
Only ending I see unless it’s a drastic change
Hopefully there is one
But knowing you I’m just a reject in your book
Not deserving of ya love cause I fucked first night instead of earning it
I wanted to but vibes was hot so I dived in to get a taste
That ocean was amazing but ya mind forever spotless
Perfect lil angel I’m sorry fa all this trouble
Maybe one day we get back close
Maybe one day I get the chance to take you on that baecation
Maybe one day I walk you down that aisle & it’s pure gold from there
But til that day
Ima let you be at peace and not stress ya
Cause yeah I want you but I’m done begging to be there
Showing you I care yet not caring if I’m even ight
That’s why ima let it ride til I see ya actions
Turn into miracles
Miracles like me flying you out w me to enjoy
Anything really w me
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