When Love Is Not Love

Once, love made me weak and blinded my senses

I thought it was me loving

But it was me falling in love with the idea of love

Every word, every look, every anguish blames between us

Had already exchanged by the millions of couples who came before us

But that doesn’t stop them from happening do they

‘Cos the real meaning could never hit you till it happens to you

Ever wonder why mankind evolved so fast

From monkeys to Neanderthals to cavemen to us

And suddenly, all the evolution came to a sudden halt the moment we bypassed survival and discovered the one thing that is more important than life itself—love

We are trapped here on the evolution ladder

Not being able to figure out what could be more important than love

We did a lot of things in the name of love

In the end, they were all wrong

Because love shouldn’t hurt, shouldn’t disappoint, shouldn’t be irresponsible

Weakness was a vicious cycle

It came in the disguise of hope and self-denial

Every time you thought your heart couldn’t be any more broken than the mess that it already was

It was sure to surprise you and break again to a new low

But if anything, the years have taught me one thing:

The more broken the heart is, it does not mean it is harder to fix it

For that the heart, it is a phoenix

It always rises from the ashes—

of the hurt;

of the tears;

of the wasted kisses and half-hearted hugs;

of the lies, both intentional and white;

of the memory that had nothing left but just pain -

Better and brighter than ever before

For its true purpose is to seek for real love

The most true and illuminating kind

And that is yet to be fulfilled

The next time you hurt

Do not rush misery

Look love straight in the eye

And be thankful for the yellow brick road that lead you there

Don’t hate the past

Let it go

Give yourself a reason to love again