Yesterday morning
with sunshine
slipping through the window
I unconsciously reached for your hand
and for a second
as if in a dream
I could feel your touch
the warmth of your fingers intertwined
with mine
But like a dream the feeling fades
the fog evaporating over
the river of my life
each morning
I lose you again
and again
forgetting little details about you
like the arc of your laugh
or the way your lips feel
pressed firmly up to mine
In these last days,
the sound of trains in the distance
are my only solace
like movie endings
where the image
of a platform shrouded in steam
beckons me onward
and the train has arrived
in the nick of time
to take me away
to the place I’m supposed to be
So I’ve decided I’ll board that train
take it wherever it goes
and I’ll pack one little picture of you
to show to little old ladies
who wonder why I’m alone
and so I don’t forget that day
when love seemed possible
when I woke up to the sound
of your dreams
and knew I loved you
It’s a shame sometimes
how this train rolls on forever
and beckons life ever onward
how there are only a few moments
to get it right
and a lifetime to regret it
though I knew I loved you
I still never said it
And though I repeat it like a mantra
you can’t hear me now
over the sound of the train
that is coming for me
Though for one brief moment
there was a perfect day
when you picked me up from the station
and drove me to your house
you kissed me in your tiny kitchen
and made me broccoli soup
and kissed me again
just for good measure
That night
I remember I lay awake
listening to your heartbeat
and the silent river of your dreams
in both of which I heard
a gentle shift in my soul
a change in the firmament
like after a long journey
when you finally return home
only to find your bags packed
and that the sands have shifted
beneath your feet
It is those nights
when the rattling noise
of life’s slow march forward
wakes me from my slumber
and I reach into my pocket
to find I have a ticket
destination unknown
and that there’s no more time
to linger in dreams
of hearts and hands and kisses
no more time
my love
my train has come
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