Until I Meet You

As I lay here, answering these Tinder boys, I can't help but slowly fall into a pit of sadness

Not because I'm having another episode, but because my heart is yearning for something that I know I won't find on Tinder

I want someone to love me and care for me

I want someone who won't look at me and automatically comment on my body

Who won't think with their dick

And I know I won't find that on Tinder

Because Tinder is just for hookups

But I love attention...

I'm happy being on my own

But there are days I truly wish I had someone to hold

Someone to call my own

Someone I can love with every fiber of my being

And while I've met some good guys on there, it always fizzles out

I'm tired of going back and forth with guys I know are only wasting my time

I'm happy being by myself

Being by myself has helped me build myself back up again to a point where I'm ready to start dating again

But I really wish I had someone to hold

Someone who I can text at any hour when I'm feeling alone

Someone I can call without hesitation when I miss their face or voice

Someone who will go on random adventures with me

Someone I can bring around my friends and family

Someone who I wouldn't have to hide anything from

I just want someone who will love me unconditionally, because I'm tired

Truly tired of fuckboys messaging me and asking for nudes

Tired of boys asking me when I want to hookup

Tired of idiots who get upset when I have my period

Tired of it all

I just want someone to hold

But until then, I'll go through it all

I'll go through the cycle of deleting Tinder just to redownload it when I get bored

I'll go through the cycle of talking to someone new, just to have it fizzle out after a while

I'll do it all, over and over again until I meet you

Or if I already know you: I'll go through it all until we're ready for each other

Hopefully it'll be soon