Two months ago if I saw you, I would've wanted nothing else but to be your girl
Last month when I looked at you, I didn't want that anymore
And I convinced myself I was over you
Now that you're back, even if it is for a brief period of time I now know that I truly am over you
I look at you and know that I don't want to be with you romantically anymore
And I know that's a good thing because once I realized that I was instantly happier
I felt like there was so much weight lifted off my shoulders
And I don't mean to sound like an asshole because you're great
But the constant overthinking is finally over with
And when my lips met yours I knew the sex would be different immediately
Not because we aren't great together in that sense, but because emotions aren't there anymore
And when you asked what's different,
When you asked if my sex drive has changed
I knew that you felt that difference too but you couldn't pinpoint what it was
There's so much that I want to do, and you know that
But now that there aren't emotions anymore, I have to readjust
However, even though I'm happy I'm also terrified
The idea of having to go back out and date people to find the one I now want to be with is scary
I don't want to be heartbroken time and time again
I'm nervous to have to go through it all
I didn't mind being heartbroken over you since it at least determined that I couldn't be broken by anyone else
But now things are different and I'm going to have to take a few risks if I want to start the next chapter of my love life
Yet, I'm still wondering...
Am I truly ready for it?
About the Creator
Em
I'm doing my best.
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