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Time
It's a funny thing.
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It felt like yesterday
I was a little girl
Mostly carefree
Yes, I said mostly.
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Burdened with unfair weight
Inflicted with unjust trauma
Trust broken through both parents
Absence of safety in all forms.
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I swore I would never be like you
Pills and alcohol
Random men
To bring you gifts.
For a price,
Of course.
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So how did I find myself in this man's car?
I'd been in many before
But this one was different.
I felt a bad vibe
Tried to get out
That's when he proudly brandished his gun
And pointed it my way.
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"You aren't going anywhere."
Those were his words
I've never felt so scared.
Sure death was coming to me
And if I'm being honest,
A part of me wished I died that night.
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You didn't kill me though
You knew I wouldn't say anything
Since drugs were involved.
You were so sure in fact,
That you took me to your house
To commit the voilence.
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Later you dropped me off in the middle of nowhere
And laughed in my face,
Calling me a 'stupid bitch'
When I asked if you could at least give me money for a ride home.
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It wasn't the drugs that kept me quiet though,
It was the shame.
What would I say?
I mean,
I chose to climb in that car.
But I wasn't your first victim,
Was I?
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So many stories like mine
Damaged daughters
Losing their way.
Many of us don't make it out alive
I was a lucky one,
Or at least,
That's what I tell myself.
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Are you lucky?
To be called a survivor of something like that?
I think so,
As long as I choose to move forward
And not let it define who I am,
I think I'll be ok.
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But It has been years now
And although you don't define me
You still haunt me.
Because I drive by your street on almost a daily basis.
If I ran into you
I doubt you'd recognize me
But me,
I'll never forget you.
About the Creator
Tressa Rose
On a serious self-discovering, soul-searching journey. Breaking myself out of a stagnant shell and reaching out for my dream of being a writer. Small steps but this is my start! Please help me by commenting your feedback, I'd be grateful!
Comments (8)
I really loved this, Tressa. I feel like every word expressed here was a step toward taking that power back from this scumbag. As someone who has suffered abuse of a different kind, I found your words inspiring and healing. Thank you for sharing
This was a suckerpunch and a half. I am sorry you had this experience. I am full of admiration because you are able to write about it...express it...take power away from him. Well done.
Oh my goodness! I'm so sorry this happened to you! Sending you lots of love and hugs 🥺❤️
Your strength and resilience shine through your words
Dear Tressa - I know I'm way out of your popular demographics. But, as a scroll through all of your gorgeous offerings I feel you so much. I've had clients that have gone through episodes such as you have and I've worked with them Pro Bono since it makes me so sad. They say certain Professionals are numb to all issues such as with your ex-husband...I never-ever was. Please do me a favor: I want to share a 'Survior' story with you: "Victims Too." Please don't be alarmed. I know you will handle it with understanding care. But, at one time or another, Dahhhlink, we were all 'Victims-Too. In Jewish that's called a "Shonda"...a Shame! Your virtual, Bud - who likes your 'Hair' - certainly nothing ulterior! Jay in L.A. btw; please see the current pic of me under 'Wheelchair' Etiquette.' I have T-Shirts older than 34ish
SO SAD. IT DOES HAPPEN. SAD GREAT STORY
This choked me up. I’m speechless. God bless you sweet sister. I’d love to read more! Subscribing. ❤️
Nicely written. I'm sorry about what happened but I admire your courage, strength to move forward and for sharing your story! :) all the best and wish you the best!! Keep writing!