Trigger

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A happy couple

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A newborn baby

When they say trigger and follow with a tragedy

I breathe out

glad they don’t share their happiness with me.

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Give me all the abuse

All the fucked up things you went trough

Because in this moment

I can face those

In this moment

Anything is better

Than “I’m happy for you”

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The truth is, I’m not happy

I kind of hate you

I hate that you have your person

When mine is gone

I hate that you have future

When mine ended 3 months ago

I hate that you get to wake up and move on with your life

When mine stopped just like that.

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First-time homebuyers

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A wedding

You get to experience, progress, fail and get back up

I get to wonder

How many days until I get to see the love of my life.

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a hug

a kiss

Why do you have to be happy?

Why can’t you be just as depressed as me?

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I wish you warned me

Before you hit me with my dreams

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I don’t want to see your happiness

I want you to hurt

I want your life to end

I want all of you to feel my pain

Because it’s not fair

That you get to live, love, and laugh

And I’m here

All alone

Not alive enough

Kind of dead inside

But not dead enough to stop.

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A beating heart.

We live to hurt

To face the abuse of the world

In this fucked up reality

We are born to die.

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So fuck this, let’s just enjoy our night.