Trauma

Hiding behind my comfort zone

Was always alone

Never felt warm and secure in the place I was supposed to call home

Cold, bold anger

Sold love for danger

Needed constant vigilance

Got so pissed but repressed it to be the best kid as a form of self protection

Self preservation, reservation of my true inner world

Became one hell of an inhibited girl

Cant fight you off, so i'll swallow the pill

*Choking* and *cough*

Never quite digested...

So it manifested as an emotional virus

Chronic existential crisis dismissing any sign of life to remain in a safe state of suffering

Utter distrust of my surroundings

The deepest ungrounding you could think of

Couldn’t stand to be a part of the world

Whirlwind waves too big to be saved from

Nowhere to run...

So i'll disconnect and drift along to the rythm of a halfass delivered broken childhood song