Respect was something that
Was drilled in me.
From a young age,
I earned respect
Through obedience and silence.
Yet Tonton demanded for a different
Type of respect.
The type of respect where
Tonton would smile for a little too long
Or hug me a little too tight.
I was told to change
Whenever Tonton came around
But Tonton’s eyes could still see through everything.
Days where Tonton would stare intently
And invade my space.
These days purge my mind
And keep me awake at night.
Why was Tonton so nice to me?
Was it my charm?
Or his hormones?
These days my skin feels
Irritated with Tonton’s touch.
I spend hours
Scrubbing away the memory.
But it only seems to spread
From between my thighs
To my stomach
To my chest
To my neck
Till it haunts my mind.
Till I feel the memory standing
In front of me
While I toss and turn
And feel Tonton's wet breath
Infest my thighs.
The smell of Tonton’s cologne
Burns my nostrils,
And engulfs my throat.
I occasionally try to
Push my nose away
But the reminiscing smell
Of sweat and cologne
Burns my eyes.
Will this infestation leave?
Or do I have to walk around
With this stench reeking my soul?
While Maman yells at me
To dress correctly
And Papa sits and laughs
With Tonton.
About the Creator
Mawou
My name is Mawou and I am a 22 years old writer. I am just writing my experiences and sharing my thoughts with whoever listens.
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