To My Oldest Baby Girl
The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me
Baby Girl,
It was a cold Sunday morning
When I looked over at the window to see a glimpse of light shining through,
One last push until you came out
Then they put you on my chest, and you covered me in poo!
The nurses wiped it away
None of that mattered,
Time stood still
And all I thought I knew about love shattered.
Oh my baby girl
You saved my life,
Loving you feels so much better
Than being anybody’s wife.
You’re four years old now
About to be a big sister
Where did the time go?
My little silly goose; my trickster.
Baby girl today my heart aches
And that is why I am writing to you,
I keep making so many mistakes
And sometimes I don’t know what to do.
Forgive me for the times I’m impatient,
For the unhealed parts of me lashing out;
I forget you’re just a little girl
Who shouldn’t hear her mother shout.
You are the light of my life
Reminding me of the importance of self-love,
My most precious gift
Sent to me from above.
Each day I pray to do better
So that we’ll always be close,
We’re honestly growing together
As I attempt to heal the behaviors my wounds impose.
I sit here wishing I could go back in time
Knowing damn well it does me no good,
I just want to do this mom thing right
Knowing that sometimes you feel so misunderstood.
Mommy isn’t perfect,
But baby girl I just want you to know,
That I’ll never stop fighting to be the best
Because it’s an honor to watch you grow.
I know that when you’re older
There are going to be certain things that need healing
Because of the mistakes that I made;
I think every mother knows that feeling...
However, I never want to be bitter
When you call me out for something in the past,
I want you to know you call always trust me
To work through it with you, and never put your name on blast.
No matter who you decide to be
Or what you choose to do,
I’ll always accept you for who you are,
For my love for you is true.
Love always,
Mommy
About the Creator
Sierra Kealani Antista
I'm an Intuitive Artist with a passion for writing.
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