Tired of life

I am tired of life, so tired of it all.

The boredom and the aloneness,

The wish to be somewhere else,

Anywhere, really but not here.

Then I think and decide,

Here it is not so bad after all.

I am so tired of life

Help me to move on,

Help to fly again,

Help me to see colours and help me

Understand that this life is all I have

And ever will have. Nothing will ever

Be more me and myself

But that short time on this earth

No before and no after

And slowly I realise,

That after, there will be complete isolation.

Now it only is a choice

I rush and hide in full sight

And am so tired of it

So tired of it all

And everything but so what

Somehow, I will struggle through,

And life will be kinder again

But I am so tired of life

And the every day

And I need a break and need to get away

Somewhere else not necessarily new

Just get away from the tiredness of it all.