Through the dark

As I’m screaming nobody can hear me. Like an uninvited guest, everyone stares. Looking at him over there. My heart ripped to shreds way beyond repair. I toss and I turn but no one returns. It burns through my thoughts never believed in such a fury. Dazed and confused I was just there being refused. By my friends and loved ones I hope you’re amused. Being in my head why can’t I be dead. No one would notice and that’s a fact. Like when a flower withers and no one reacts.

Things will never change I’m thinking I may be deranged. Hopeless and helpless I’m barely getting by yet I’m still called selfish? I give and I give and now I’m up till five: alone is how I’m feeling but I know I’m not the only one dealing with strong feelings they can’t ignore or reduce. Please hear me cry because I swear I’d rather die. Than spend one more day on the dark and miserable plane. Though I hope sunshine and rays are not this scary and stormy place.

Not absolve you can see not a place that you can go but I am area that everybody knows that someday I’m gonna blow. Somewhere other than this place looking for a cozy space, I must be aware of all the obstacles in my way oh god don’t let me stress; everything I can’t control. Can’t I just have a life as smooth as oil? Ripping at the seams please just hear me scream! Drowning in anguish each day always seems endless. A good mask I would wear for no one shall deem me frail.